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well, things got better for a bit...but now theryre even worse. I'm getting super major depression. No. I havent cut yet...but it's still tempting. Why am I so depressed? Thousands of microscopic reasons all of which just keep piling up on eachother untill it's a giant boulder bearing down on my back. But the biggest reason of all? I just feel really lonely. The latest guy I asked out, well, he turned me down. An yeah, I've had a date since then and a few other hook-ups...but nothng really seems to help. None of it's really meaningful. Just physical and I've had enough of that for now.....I just dont know where to go or what to do. I got to a school where all of the guys I could possibly see myself with are taken, gay, or....other circumstances have interfered. and I have no social life with people outside my school because I have too much Homework...... Any suggestions?