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I know it might seem pretty self explanitory so far when you see it, but I also know it could make people wonder just what I mean by those three question marks.
The first one stands for the question I ask every single day: Who am I?
The second one stands for the second question which plagues my feeble mind: What am I?
And the third stands for the third question and probibly the most important yet the one which no one but the steady hand of time can answer: Who am I to Become?

I know these may seem very vain questions and a very long answer for a ver simple thing. They stand for the unknown and my constant curiosity towards everything. I am always one to ask why? Or to question ignorance, and because of this I have been flamed by Catholics, Christians, Jews, Muslims, Hundus, Bhudists, Wiccens and just about every other religion. This is because I am one to ask them to question their beliefs and what they know because when we learn something we learn it through the trials of others, and therefor we never learn it for ourselves. Normally what I will tell you I have learned from my own wandering expierences across this world, and through the trials of my mind and passing throughts and careful contemplation over 19 years which I never had a quiet moment within my mind.
Getting back on track: The title is simply a statment about that this Journal is not just about me, it is not just about one other person or even those I come in contact with. This is a Journal which will go through and analise and question and ponder everything that runs through my mind so long as my fingers can type fast enough to keep up with the wavering throughts of my mind... and of course, time tested and approved they will fail, so give me time and eventually I will cover everything... I think.
In effect the second question mark is the most important, the What Am I? Question mark. This is because I can not define what I am because every moment what I am changes, but always I am existant. What am I? Am I a man? No... I dare not say that for if I am a man then why do I not follow blindly as it is said by some that a man should do? Am I a Person? Nay I dare not say I am a person because that implies I am simply one in the crowd of humanity and I am not that because I stand out amonst the many and look about and wonder Why? So it has led to that question, though admitedly when I first created the title I did not give it as much contemplation as that, though I did go through several posibilities, and the one that I thought would be good for a title yet did not post for sheer length was~

What Am I? You define me as you read this and let me know your thoughts.

So please, define me and let me know who or what you think I am because I always wish to know precisely what people think of me. And in that statment PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE Be brutally honest. Be as honest as you can be for I have always been one who would rather have you spit in my face then smile to it and cursing behind my back.
Thanks and I'll look foreward to reading anything that is said.
~Spirit
Also Known As:
Lianos Smith
Keristan Arkanos
& Nicholas Govednik