Considering the mad-cap and zany Halloween event I and my fellow Gaians have experienced, I felt it only fitting to end this alien-and-cow-filled romp with another segue into Scully's mind.
And, for the record, I almost feel sorry for the insanity I put her through these last five days.
'Almost' is the operative word here.
Excerpt from Dana Scully's personal journal:
11/05/2006 .....Though I, and the rest of the G-Team, have all shared our copious notes, confiscated items, snapshots and other evidence, the G-File we investigated throughout this Halloween week remains open. I can't imagine closing the case with so many questions left unanswered. Vahrley and the others are enjoying the chance to feel smug and spread more than a few I-told-you-so's to critics and skeptics (myself included) now that unquestionable proof of alien life has been brought to light. Despite the inconclusive nature of the case as a whole, they're considering it a personal victory, and if nothing else comes of it, that vindication of our work investigating the paranormal made the effort all worth while.
.....I'm taking the teasing in stride on the surface, but beneath it all, I feel...disturbed.
.....I don't remember much of the week's events and that's not like me. What I do recollect is garbled, hazy and nonsensical. There are cows. And aliens. And endless white corridors filled with speechless strangers. It's impossible to piece together. So I smile indulgently as Fryd and Fox Headroom claim (in disconcertingly harmonic unison) they knew the truth was out there all along. I just wonder if they realize how little of the truth they've glimpsed?
.....And I wonder if any of my colleagues had anything like the vivid dream I'm about to type into this journal?
~Author's note: The following quoted conversation DID occur in the Halloween 2k6 event forums. I have quoted the madness in its entirety, edited only for cow content. After all, there's only so many lowing bovines a person can take!~
.....I'm in a colorless room that feels endlessly long; a brilliant, white, sterile corridor of a room. There are cows. Then aliens. Occasionally, there's a human, like me. I see Vahrley sometimes. He's paired with an alien and they seem to take turns making faces at each other. Neither of them seem to speak, and yet, I could swear they're communicating. I don't feel completely like myself. I think I may be drugged, or possessed by another consciousness not my own. Maybe both. I begin to talk to myself about things that I don't understand...
Special Agent Dana Scully You know what the X-Files needed? A theme song with lyrics! 4laugh ...And yet a part of me thinks I should, that if I dig deeply enough, I'll remember...
Special Agent Dana Scully Firefly had catchy lyrics. For example.: Take my love, Take my cows... Err, nevermind. wink ...Firefly? Maybe my unconscious mind can make sense of this, I cannot...
Special Agent Dana Scully Here, take my cows. Please! Badump bump! whee ...Cows kept appearing whenever I said something. Somehow the joke made sense. It was the only moment of sense I was allowed...
Special Agent Dana Scully You know what Gaia needs? Horses to round up the cows!!! xd Special Agent Dana Scully I mean, what's a bovine roundup without horses?!? eek ...And why were horses so important to me? I've long since grown past my desire for a pony...
Zurgette You've got a point, Scully. Cows NEED horses. 3nodding Special Agent Dana Scully Good to know someone agrees. You know, Firefly had cows AND horses. If they can have 'em both, why can't we??? ...I don't remember feeling anything but pleasure when the alien joined in. After all, she'd agreed with me and my strange, senseless monologue. I wonder if this is some sort of metaphor... Zurgette eek Err... Scully? Hon? Does someone need to watch a little more X-Files and a little LESS Firefly right now? Special Agent Dana Scully *Sniff.* The X-Files don't have as many horses!!! crying ...Again this strange fixation on horses. And how does one 'watch' X-Files? Why the stress on fireflies, or rather a firefly, singular? Fireflies, pretty as they may be to observe in an open field on a starry night, aren't exactly a must see...
Zurgette Yeah. So you mean to tell me Dana Scully has been replaced by horses and cows riding around in a flying spacecraft? neutral ...I've been replaced??? Still I'm not shocked or angered by the idea, only slightly annoyed...
Special Agent Dana Scully stare Scully has NOT been replaced. 'Joined by' is the phrase. ...Why did I make this clarification in such a way? What does it mean...
Zurgette And then you wonder why people accuse you of being obsessive. wink Special Agent Dana Scully Yeah! Just because I hold torches for fictional television characters ( heart heart SCULLY!!! INARA!!! heart heart )!!! ...Obsession? To my work, perhaps, but I haven't had the time, nor the inclination to watch TV since The Fox Network aired that alien autopsy hoax video I was in. And why am I speaking of myself in the third person? And indicating myself as a 'fictional television character'? Surrounded by HEARTS??? And who is this 'Inara' I've been linked to??? But I don't feel at all confused during this conversation...
Special Agent Dana Scully stare You're giving me THE LOOK, aren't you? The look that says, 'You're nuts but I'm not gonna say anything and call attention to myself, just in case the nut has projectile weapons.' emo ...Huh??? I'm certain THIS one is a metaphor. I intend to apologize to Fox Headroom for shooting him THE LOOK so often during our investigations. And Vahrley too...
Zurgette eek Me? >.> Look??? <.< What look?!? *Innocence!* Special Agent Dana Scully *Sniff!* emo *Double sniff!!* crying Zurgette sad Gaia needs horses. Gaia needs SCULLY on horses! Yeah! ...I can't believe that I felt so HURT. And why is the alien patronizing me? Did she expect to HAVE to patronize me. A 'natural' reaction to whatever mind-altering drugs had been introduced into my body, perhaps...
Special Agent Dana Scully *Sniffle.* You're just saying that. *Whimper.* Zurgette NO!!! No, really, I mean it! Horses!!! Scully ON the horses!!! Yeah! Honest!!! *Pats her back.* ...My pain seems so GENUINE!!! And again, the horse issue. Why is me ON a horse of such great import? I haven't ridden since I was EIGHT...
Special Agent Dana Scully *Puppy eyes.* Scully AND Inara on the horses? *Sniff.* Rounding up the Gaian cows? *More puppy eyes.* ...Is this Inara as confused as I am? I can only imagine she is. Or should be. And why on Gaia am I seeking this alien's assurance??? Drugs, it must be drugs. A serious hallucinogen or possibly an anti-psychotic...
Zurgette Uhh...Sure! Yeah. Scully and Inara rounding up the cows on the horses. *Nods fast.* And we'll throw in Wash flying Serenity AROUND Scully and Inara as they round up the cows. *Nods faster and smiles sweetly.* ...Obviously the alien knows something I don't. Why do I feel there is a link between this Inara person and Wash? The word is said like a name and not an act. And how does one 'fly' serenity...
Special Agent Dana Scully But that would scare the cows! And the poor horses might panic! surprised ...Who IS this wmorganstern? Why is she here? Is she hallucinating as well or is she a figment of my imagination??? Do frightened cows and panicked horses mean a lack of cow bells to her somehow? What is the connection...
Zurgette eek Oh. stare Okay, Serenity is in space MONITORING the progress of the mounted Inara and Scully while they round up the cows. Better? rolleyes ...Serenity is a spacecraft? Maybe it's Zurgette's code word for the mothership...
wmorganstern Big X-Files fan? I'm partial to Serenity too. ...The stranger seems to understand this madness more than I do. I wish she could explain it to me now that I'm conscious and sober...
Special Agent Dana Scully THAT works! biggrin I LIKE that! whee *Ponders.* Hmmm, maybe we could find a way to fit Mulder into this...And River...Hmmmm... ...I don't know how to even BEGIN to justify this last comment. Thankfully, I remember nothing more.
.....I'm still debating sharing this with the rest of the team. It poses more questions about my sanity than I feel comfortable with. But if I don't divulge my experience, I'm withholding possible evidence. And who knows? Maybe one of them understands what I meant by 'Firefly', 'X-Files' and 'Inara'. Could they hold the key to the 'Serenity' code ? Or was all of this really just a baffling dream brought about by the shock of coming face-to-face with alien intelligence and an overdose of snack-sized, Halloween chocolate?
.....One thing is certain, I have been unalterably changed by these events. And so has my car. The words 'Official Browncoat Companion' have been written in bold letters across the back bumper. In permanent ink. In my handwriting. *Sigh.*
Note to self: No more Halloween candy before bed.
Does anyone else want to rub their green, bulbous, bald heads? Additional note to self: Find a new therapist.
Special Agent Dana Scully · Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 03:26am · 0 Comments |