Sometimes i catch myself staring at the computer screen wanting to write so many things that are just off the tip of my tongue but for some reason my fingers wont move. Like their frozen. But its just like the saying, "some things are better left unsaid."
But what if all those things that are left unsaid arent for the better? We all at some point or another hold back so many feelings just because we are afraid. But what is it that we are afraid of? Rejection? Humiliation? Of being wrong? So we hold back. Yes it saves you experiencing feelings of hurt, but what if what your saving yourself from is really causing you the hurt in the long run?
When you find someone you love and the feelings are so strong, so soon and you dont know whats come over you, and your so frightened of what the person will say or do that you never tell them your true feelings, so you lose out. Because i can almost quarentee it that the other person is too afraid themselves. And one day after holding all those feelings in, the realization that you are losing them and you will never get the chance you have always wanted kicks in and you spill out the secrets you've hidden inside for so long, but their reply is, "why couldnt you tell me this sooner?! its too late now."
I'm one of those people who always is afraid to open up with the fear of getting hurt. And im always losing and missing out on great things. They dont wait for me. they pass right on by. and its my own fault. I am trying to take risks and open myself up to new things. Cause i dont like being the girl on the sidelines watching everyone, or the person backstage who itches to be in the spotlight, or the girl whos afraid to tell a boy she loves him with the fear he will do nothing but break her heart.
I'm tired of leaving the things that should be said, unsaid.
Elvira____Sachiko · Sat Nov 11, 2006 @ 06:41pm · 0 Comments |