well, im at home on valentines day and ubable to go anywhere besides the docter. my throat wont stop coughing, im dehidrated, and my eye is all...infected-like. karma is mean gonk . but to top it all off my father is taking me to the docter today. y r they doing this to me? do the fates really hate me that much? aggh! i just spilled milk all over everything too. i guess that answeres the previous question. i just wish i could b at school with kassie. i miss her so much, and i dont think she even knows it. but back on the subject, my dad doesnt care for my behavior too much anymore. i mean he still loves me, and i know he tries to b a good father, but lets just say he needs more practice. i just pray to foamy that he doesnt bring her. my step-mother. hssssssssssssssssss! pure evil hidden under a christian womans skin. shes so abusive, and negative. i can barely mutter 3 words when shes in the room. shes always judging me, waiting for me to slip up, trying to make me trip. and when i do she has all the more reason hit me. thats y i dont go over there anymore, and my dad just cant understand it. i havent told him about any of this, although i did when i was six. we were on vacation at some canyon place, hard for me to recall, started with a 'z'. anyways, my dad left to go hiking with a friend for the day and i was stuck there, alone with her. i had a hat that my dad bought prior to the trip with me, but she didnt like it. she said it was too expensive for a recklace child to have. he bought it for me anyways. so there i was, and she took my hat and she started ripping it up with some sissors. i started crying and then she had enough. she told me to shut-up, but i wouldnt. and so she pointed those sissors at me. i guess u can infer from there what took place next. i tried to tell my dad on the way home, but he said that i was over reacting. he twisted my words all up and put new ones in my mouth. he said that she was just trying to help me. he said that i really got those gashes from tumbling down a small hilside and landing in some thorn bushes but i just didnt remember. well i do remember, and i dont want her to b there.
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Vailah · Mon Feb 14, 2005 @ 05:13pm · 2 Comments |