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Alright, well i'll go as far as.....first grade. Pretty much as far as i can remember. Well there was this kid who would always tries to fit in, and tries to be "normal" as he told me. He tries and tries, yet no avail. Then one day, i decide to just be his friend for the hell of it, i mean it couldn't be so bad right? Well, it was. For the reason why he never actually fitted in was because he was rude, obnoxious and pretty stupid. At the time i really didn't mine. But then after a few years of him getting on my nerves, I was sure i was gonna kill him. By then it was third grade. Knowing him and putting up with his constant attitude had altered my personality. I was more hostile, i became irritable and then became what i hated the most, i became a jerk as well.
At the time, i really hadn't noticed that I had become one since its hard to judge one self from your view right? Well anyway, it was a whole year until I found out myself how much of one I was. I finally just tolf that kid to just not talk to me, cause he was anoyying, irritable and i hated him. Of course, I hadn't ment it but the words were said and thus, the damage done. On that, like i said before it was a whole year so i was stepping into the 4th grade, I had spent a summer thinking of what i said that last day. Thinking of what kind of person i've been that last school year. I basically did a personal reflection, with the help of my sister for she knew i was a big jerk too o-O;;.

Alright, so the 4th grade started. Well there i decided to take change and turn a new leaf. Instead of being a jerk, which at the time ment speaking up and talking, i would be well less of a jerk, which at the time ment quiet and take crap like no one else. That whole year made me feel horrible, i took crap from everyone that gave it to me. I didn't do a single thing, i felt that if i did, then I would be stooping down to their level. Infact, I did the wrong thing, from where i could see. In fact, what i think i should have done was far different from what I wanted to do and what i could have done. What i should have done was assert myself and who ever gave me crap i would do the same. What i wanted to do was to either shoot them or kill them(not much of a big difference there but w/e). And what i could have done was at least tell a teacher. Yet nothing was done by little ol' me and I began to develop self-esteem issues. Then the year ends and summer starts. Not only do i have to cope with the stress of being a wimp(basically thats what I'm gonna sum it down to) but i also figure out i have to change schools.
Well I'm gonna fast foward to 6th grade cause the 5th grade might trouble you a bit, and really, it might be best I NOT tell you alright? You have to trust me on this part. Well 6th grade is started and I by a random occurance make a new friend in the weirdest way in the world. Well I was in math and there was this girl who sat at my table. Well it was like me to take crap from people like i always do, so when i was wokring, she kicks me in the shin for no reason. My like is throbbing in pain, but all i do is look up at her and say hi. She stares at me and kicks me again, and I'm just about to cry my eyes out, so i shift im my seat so she can't kick me. She tells me her name, and ironically, thats when we become friends o_o;. Since we had almost every class together and she actually helped me with my work. So basically with her around, making new friends was easier. One, since I had less stress on my mind, and two she introduced all her friends to me and there we go, i had a whole list lol. This went on for a bout a year and it was good...until I notice that my friend, sort of had a crush on me. At the time i was pretty immature so i thought it was nothing. end of part three, hands, fingers and wrist sore xP