I did some thinking today. I discovered the following:
a.) I have really bad people problems
b.) I am getting better at drawing
c.) I am too obessed with drawing
d.) I get to paranoid
e.) I worry too much
f.) I have to slow down a little bit in life and take my time to do things
g.) I need to start trying to get along with my mom, even if I don't want to.
h.) I am scared to tell my friends some things, because I don't want to hurt them
i.) I need to be more responsible
j.) I worry to much what others think about me
k.) I am a real jerk at times
l.) I hold grudges to long
m.) I need to study harder
n.) I need to eat better
o.) I need to drink more water
p.) I need to get more sleep
q.) I need to work more towards my goals
r.) I have to take more time for myself
s.) I need to stop being so paranoid
t.) I need to quit being so cocky at times
u.) I have to enjoy life more
v.) I need to listen to my friends more
w.) I need more patience
x.) I need to stop asking for so much, I have all I need
y.) I need to stop making my friends worry about my problems, it isn't right
z.) I need to learn to ignore people I truely can't stand
I noticed that I really do need to change. I don't really like most about parts of me. I look up at that list, and it makes me realize I am everything I don't want to be and everything I have been trying not to be. The only good thing on that list is that I am getting good at drawing. Wow... one point for me. But really, this shows how terrible of a person I am.
Another thing that I am bad at, being a girl friend. Who was I to think that I could go with some one older. I am forgetful and definately not responsible. I was suppose to talk to him tonight, but I completely forgot because I was drawing. AAAGH!!! I am such an idiot.
Oh, and about my drawing thing. Well, about the good part. I am working on this picture (The same one I blew D off on stressed ). It does look really good. At first, I was just experimenting, but it looks like something that I wouldn't do. I don't even feel like I am the one doing these. It is as if my hand just does the drawing its self and I am not doing any of the work. It is really really wierd. I am getting a lot better with drawing hands, that is a good and obvious thing!
Well, I better go!
Kelsey
View User's Journal
({[Watashi no chiisan wa ryu desu]})
Stuff... about what is going on in my heckic life. If I say something that you don't think shouldn't be here, PM me before you report me and I will gladly change it ASAP. Just tell me what entry(ies) it is.
 |
