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It's been awhile since my last rant, and probably a good thing too...

Well here goes...

Yeah, I'm a slacker, I know that. It's probably because I'm expected to give 110% to all that I do. My parent's constanly say, "Do your best!" I'm tired of that. I don't want to do my best right now... I want to do what I have to and have time of my own. I want to be able to be online and do things there, have my own kind of fun...

My dad doesn't understand that. He calls this 'fake', tells me I have to deal with 'reality'. Geee thanks dad, so I can't have an escape and be happy, I have to instead, rot in the dull repetative day to day grind that has become my life? Thanks, but no thanks. I rather like being able to slip into a world where I'm not plain old me. He's an engineer, likes things in the 3-D world, things he can touch... Which is ironic, because he's a practicing Methodist.

Hooo boy... Yeah... I'm a writer by choice, so I'm creative, I like this place that is more feeling than physical. He doesn't understand that I'd rather feel an emotion than actually tangle with something. This is real to me... As odd as that may seem.

You see... I have friends here... Not outside in the 'real' world. Hell, my Girlfriend and I are long distance til I can close that gap, and I've got some really nice friends here too... Jo, Mina, Tia, Dia, Rai, Ru, Spooks, Rae, Skippy... As opposed to Adam, and Misty, my real lifers. Wow... That scales a bit uneven no?

At anyrate, I'm tired of being told that I'm not doing enough... I just want some me time... and a lot of it... Is that too much to ask?