Please read this IF YOU CANNOT STOP UNTIL YOU REACH THE END THEN YOU MUST CARE ATLEAST A LITTLE . . . And You Will Truly Understand What I Am About To Do.
Mommy.. I'm sorry to say this now,
But I was desperate and drowning in my emotions, When I yanked that implement,
Across my skin.
Mommy, I was a good girl, I did What I was told,
Or tried to atleast.
But Mommy, when I went to school that day,
I never said good-bye,
With the love that I meant to.
I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry.
But when I cut myself,
I'd had enough,
And wanted to be with God.
Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,
And please tell Teresa,
That I really didn't mean to hurt her,
And that I really did care.
And tell my older sister; That she is the only one now,
And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now,
And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best;
Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest.
Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,
And also that counselor,
That I really did try.
And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass.
Mommy, I'm glad that it was me,
And that no one else went through what I did.
Mommy, warn the others, Mommy I left without a kiss.
And Mommy tell the psychologist; I know that he really did try,
I think I even saw him in my dreams later,
Him trying not to cry.
Mommy, I'm slowly dying,
With the blood pouring from my self inflicted wound,
But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with God.
Mommy I tried my hardest to resist,
But when the temptation sprang, It was all too much.
Mommy, listen to me if you would,
I wanted to go to college, I wanted to try things that were new,
I guess I'm not going with Teresa,
On that trip to the beach.
I wanted to help people,
And fill God's purpose for my life.
I wanted to be there for others,
Mommy, I didn't want to die really.
But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,
Mommy, tell my girl and greatest friend Teresa,
That I'm sorry but I had to cancel my part in the trip.
I love you Mommy, I always have, I know; you know it's true,
And Mommy all I wanted to say is, "Mommy, I love you."
****Written In hopes of my walk to God and Heaven****
Ricka I · Mon Apr 09, 2007 @ 11:27pm · 0 Comments |