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Yeah, ever since three weeks ago, when my ex moved to Arkansas, my life has falling into disrepair.

Dumping her was hell, it took an hour because she kept trying to convince me not to. It hurt me so much because I'm still, even now, very attached to her. But I know I'd do something very stupid because that's the kind of person I am. So I did it now before I did something bad.

I sent someone to a suicide/runaway treatment facility. The day before, I hid her at my place so her Father couldn't pick her up and we went to my friends house to get drunk. The next day at school, which I didn't go to, not because I had a hangover, we didn't get to drink, but I really didn't feel well. I had a horribly bad night, really depressed and she comforted me along with Collin. Anyway, she got taken out of school and put in the treatment facility. I need to talk to her Father now because I want to find out if she'll be okay and when she's supposed to be getting out. But I don't think she'll be out any time soon because another one of my friends goes to the same facility and it took her 6 month to get to be able to go to public school again.

My best friends Collin and Brittany are moving away from me. I don't know where, but it will be cometime during the summer. I'm going to be busy most of it so I won't be able to see them off and that makes me even sadder.

A lot of my friends are Seniors this year and their all graduating and moving away, going to college. Why can't I be friends with people my own age huh?

Several girls now are hitting on me and it's kind of scaring me. I have a this thing with being really nice to girls when I'm all morbidly sad and that's the way I've been the past couple weeks/month. Although the attention is nice, it's not wanted and they expect things out of me because I'm all sluttish normally but thats not the way I am now.

My weeks have been just so totally awesome!!! *So much sarcasm* How has yours been?