Originally posted on Wednesday, April 25 2007:
Well today we finished the writing WASL and now we only have the Reading left. I'll be happy when this is all over cause then I can sleep at 11:00 instead of 10:00.
Okay well I think this new kid got suspended and I think I actually miss him. Not because I like him but because at least I have someone to talk to. It's so boring in my class I'm friends with everyone in that class, just not the hang-out-with-almost-everyday type with any of them. This is why I wish the friend that I imagined existed. Her name is Kendra. She's my ideal best friend. And her adopted brother is my perfect boyfriend. And we make the perfect group of friendship. And that includes Jason's (Kendra's brother) best friend Eric. *sigh* If only if only.
I have really great friends but I don't really socialize with em that much. I mean, when me, Iris, and Yazmine go to the park (actually a playground), I just sit and swing and listen to my iPod while Iris and Yazmine talk. It's like I'm no longer part of the group, which is really big. But I still talk to them. Like today in gym, we all just walked around the track and made jokes and stuff. It was a really great time. I don't want to lose that.
And I don't want to lose this place I live. I mean, yea, it's on base but it sorta rocks. There's the park I live near, a ditch, a lake, a little beach, and really beautiful places to go to. And they have Sakura trees and I get hypoitized when the wind blows and the pedals fly around. The lake, a lot of interesting things can happen there. The ditch (couldn't think of a better name), you can sit on a fallen tree and have a sword fight with sticks. And the little area is really cute and there's a little playground with a dome. And I think the little beach can be a romantic place, when the sun is setting. That's where I'll take I person that's important to me one day. If I can still get on base. You see, I'm moving to Dupont and that's close by and my dad's retiring. So I'm not sure if I'll be able to get back on base.
I still want to be going to these places, maybe until I'm fifteen or sixteen. And I will take someone important to me there one day, to every one of those places. I wouldn't care if they saw no point in all this, it's just great that I showed all these places to that important person. And I think I'll tell them all my thoughts on the places and of the sakura. As long it was that person that I loved, whether as a friend or a lover, I would be happy.
But the chances of that person being more than a friend. I'm ugly. Not pretty. That's what I think. No guy will like me and that prefect boyfriend just won't exist. That's the truth unfortunatly. But maybe I'll get prettier. Maybe that special person, that someone just for me, does exist. It'll just take longer to find him than for the other people. I would be sad, being without a lover, but I can handle sadness. I've dealt with depression so I can deal with sadness. But I would want the perfect best friend for me to come soon.
I didn't tell you about me moving. Yea, my dad bought a house in DuPont and we're moving into it in June I think. That's where I plan to start my improvement: (summer) I would get up early in the morning and jog. I'll make my own jogging route. Probably just down the street, a left turn, then another left turn, and then another; each about two blocks long; except for the one down the street, it'll be about five blocks down. I just hope that I actually do it. I want to get better at running, maybe through high school and I'll get a scholarship. I can just imagine myself running in the bright sunset, sneaking out of the house, and sneaking back in. Of course I'll leave a note saying I went jogging. I just want to be there when the sun is rising, if the sun rises during the time I run.
All these things I hope that will happen will have a very little chance of happening. But I still hope they happen. I'll keep dreaming that they happen.
-Prosthetic_Angel- Community Member 
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