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ok so im going to say heck with spelling grammer and w/e else is involved in writing

i feel like rambling about this whole thing is the only way for me to figure out watz going on right now

so where to start when i met seth yeah thatz when my life changed at first it was for the better i was happy and i lost a lot of bad habbitz i had because i truly loved seth and i wasnt going to cheet on him no mkatter wat happend so as time went on we were happy and i mean really happy we had a few fightz but they only made as closer and then a couple dayz after one of those fightz seth asked me to be hiz gaian wife i was happyer than id been since my dad died and was blushing in real life and i couldnt stop smiling i was so happy and it showed in the next week or two

then cassidy came into play and i started to niotice seth was keeping stuff from me like this chick kitsure in darkness and then cassidy both of them almost broke us up the first time i asked seth about them but he made up liez and i believed them i rele did and now i think im stupid for believing that but thatz not in the story yet me and dark are now friendz she and seth broke up and me and him were happy once again

and then i met cassidy and it was rele weird like she said she was with him and not me and i was heartbroken but seth denied every bit of it and said it was a bet he had with hiz friend nate who is cassidyz big bro i think if thatz even true and i of course trusted him with my life by now so i believed him with all my heart so after that fight we dicided we should elope on gaia and we did so we were gaian husband and wife and life was great and i loved it oh so much

then zachary one of my friendz came into play cus i started liking him and i told seth cus i didnt want to keep it from him i never did ever i wanted to tell him everything i possibly could but...after i told him we finally broke up for good life sucked after that he was with my best friend the next day i was so hurt no one could possibly relize how hurt i was i wanted to kill myself but no one would let me so i started to cut more than i used to

and somewhere in here one of my best friendz and seth broke up and he started going out with cassidy

before i would only cus like once every two monthz but after that it became monthly then weekly then nightly so i was cutting myself everynight and they were very deep cutz of course i never told any one this i stopped cutting jjust resently since me and seth sum wat made up but i will now have scares forever up my armz across my stomach and down my legz and yes tey do hurt but all they r r reminders of my past and how much of a s**t hole it was

but where was i oh yes just resently me and seth started talking again and he keepz telling me he loves me more than n e thing yet he is still with cassidy i dont understand how u can say u love sum 1 so much yet still not be with them but he knowz how i feel right here becvause he has seen me with a few guyz and most of the guyz i hit on around him to tell u the truth was just to make seth relize all the pain he has put me through


ok i think i have got mostly everything down and yeah im a stop for now if u have n e question tipz guidence all is appriciated greatly