Most people who don't know me all that well will look at me and think that I'm odd or ditzy, but they have no idea. They have no idea that the mask I wear is one that has been in place so long that I've almost forgotten what it was like to look at someone and tell them what I honestly think the first time they ask. Once they get to know me I'm honest and 'deep and dark' as one of my friends says. Actually she says that I'm happy with an odd sort of darkness to me. I'm not sure if that's a compliment but for the moment I don't care.
People say I change my mind too much, and they're wrong. I simply do not know what to say or how to express what is in my mind. How do I tell someone that I believe in something because of something else? That, because of a long sequence of events in my life, I am obligated to hold certain things as more ture then others, because I know they are. Anyone reading this would probably look at you and tell you it's easy to explaine such a thing, and they are lying. Certain things are easy to explaine and catagorize in the human mind. Then there are other things that most people can not phathom. Why can't they? Because they are all to logical. If they can't explaine it and disect it into a million different peices then it must be false. I think that's kind of stupid myself.
Have we all become so close minded that we can't stand back for five seconds and accept that there are some things that simply can not and will not be explained? Or is it simply that people are so afraid of what could be that they must cling tightly to what they know is already there? You know what? I hope we don't find Aliens, I hope we don't discover God, I hope that every unexplained phenomina in the world stays that way. You know why I hope for that? It's simple. If everything that's a mystery now stays a mystery no one will be able to explaine it, and people will still wonder. That, and if they finally do find whatever it is they are looking for they'll try to take it apart, and make it logical. Why can't there be any more mystery? Why do we need to know everything? I don't want to know everything, because if I did, it would be boreing.
 Vendi_girl · Tue Aug 29, 2006 @ 11:20pm · 1 Comments |
