Well...life seems like it will never level out, even a little. My brother has been loosing touch, but he doesn't care, and my love has been pratically raping me. ((I'm really pissed, to the point where I don't care if strangers see this.)) It hurts...it really hurts. My parents faith in me has died, but that's okay. I don't need their faith, and I don't have any in them. My sister seems to deny me in front of her friends....she doesn't know how much it hurts to see and hear her do that. I'm thinking she'll never accept me. It doesn't matter though. I won't have to deal with her in a little...something to look forward to. My cravings for things have become uncontrollable. I don't know what to do. At night I cry and no one even bothers to ask what's wrong. Not even the people I call my friends. I suppose they never truly were my friends. I don't know what to think anymore. I can't do what I used to, to relax and it drives me insane. I'd rather have something happy to write about, but in all honesty...I don't. And that's reality. Well I'm not improving my mood by typing this....
 Madam_Silky13 · Thu Apr 14, 2005 @ 08:19pm · 0 Comments |
