So ya im a little confused now, so much has changed since graduation.. i've spent every spare waking moment with my friends trying to avoid guys at all cost.. somehow.. nothing ever works..
My angel is a very close friend but he was moreso meant to be my guardian angel. which is great i have no complaints. But with my deadline for the military just 11 days away, its un nearving to think i might be falling for someone new.
At the beginning of august i started hanging out with one of my old friends and his girlfriend, well one night we decided to go to her house for the night. she mentioned she had a brother who was really excited to meet a military girl, which was fine with me, picturing in my head a little boy with googley eyes and an awed expression on his face.. ya.. not so much. her ''little brother'' walked through the door and my jaw hit the floor.
He was perfect. dirty blonde hair, perfect teeth, taller then me, and he's a football player. He was so shy so unlike every guy i've ever met, and so respectful. raised with his sister by his mom and a military dad. we didn't talk much at first, words escaping me and him being just generally quiet. but lucky for me i know a little about football and he had some questions about the military. we stayed up all night talkin an havin a good time, but he ended up having to work the next morning.
So my friend an i continued to go to his girlfriends house as often as possible and now she is practically my sister. Her parents love me to death and i'm starting to grow on him. we talked about possibly starting something with each other, but an unexpected problem occured.. he has a girlfriend. at first it seemed as if all systems failed and i was speeding strait torward rocky ground, but then i watched them and they are missurable and i know its horrible of me but im happy about it, his parents dont particularly care for her and shes cheated on him several times. and he told me that they probably wouldnt be together much longer, and when i come home for christmas we can be together.
I told myself for a while it was pointless to try to find someone because my future rests in the eyes of the army for the next 6 years. but when i met him everything changed, its like something clicked the second our eyes met. I've never met a guy so gung ho about me being in the military, and whats worse.. for some reason i trust him.. and everything bad just escapes my mind when im with him, hes like my own personal happy pill.
Right now, i cant picture my life without him in it, its like he's been here my whole life an i just never noticed.. always only 20 minutes away.. yet i never noticed.
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