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Forever Lasts 8 Months And 29 Days:

You hated everything I loved.
You took everything I believed in and you made it fade.
You, you, you. All you.
I was sick, weak, trembling
I smoked too much and I'd stay up all night listening to that one song.
Over and over. Like a heartbeat.
Wish I could see you now
Talk, shoot the s**t and pretend that I don't love you anymore.
I want you to be proud of me
I want you to be disappointed
I want you to fall in lust with a pretty young thing.
Narrow waisted and innocent
Someone who doesn't shake, who doesn't cry when she sees a picture of you.
I want everything to change.
I want nothing to change.
Painted portraits of you
Blues and browns and fingerprints
You're there in every song on the radio.
Not today, you said to me when I tried to love you
It's cliche to feel and you're a has-been.
I don't want to be here anymore.
Stuck with your sad eyes and fragmented memories
Pretty smiles and guitars
I bought you teddy bears and you fed me lies.
I want to run away with you.
To taste your skin, to read the letters you never wrote, to rescue you.
You adored my giggle
And you saw me in your dreams
You laughed and you cried and you hated my taste in music and you said you'd die without me.
Why aren't you dead yet?
I love you, I love you.

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