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Chemotherapy:

I played your games and spun your wheel
Chills and spills of a crippled heart
Sweet angel? Maybe in the next life
I was a ringleader and an enabler
Letting you drag me into your discord
You loved me, with the holes in your eyes
Winning and grinning and flying (So carefully)
Into the face of my dignity
The faces of our pain, dance
And twirl and speak in the language of corpses
I inhaled your poison into my core
Into the hole where my power used to be, my control
That you RIPPED from me
I found you beautiful
With your twisted heart and empty face
I ached for you and for the time
When I held your love between my teeth
You're a memory now
Designated to haunt the cardboard boxes
Filed away between rape and roadkill
I stole my strength back in bits and pieces
This is the radiation in my veins
This is the malignant tumor, black and pulsing
That I tore from my gut with bare hands
This is the end of an era
And this is lancing of the wound
I'm taking you down off the shelf
And wringing you dry
******** subtleties and romance
It's all part of the process and I am in a RAGE

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