In the last entry I mentioned my beloved boyfriend who was the most precious thing in my world. He broke up with me just two weeks after the entry was posted and the sad thing is I was only crushed for a month before attempting to move on. Which was easier said than done until a rather perculiar acquaintance became so much more under the summer night sky on June 2, 2007. This mystery person has been the main component of the rebuilding process since the break up and it thrills me that they want to be my everything. As wonderful a proposition as that may be I cannot allow it at the moment because my heart is still fragile and suffering repercussions from "him" cry . . . But none the less I have moved on toward a brighter future with a new and very dear friend turned lover in which I can chase my dreams and aspirations.
The person whom I've started to fall for is nicknamed BamBam due to her initials and will be referred to as such. She is a year younger than me and such a free spirit that she brings out the inner child in me as though she turns back to a time where friends were made in a matter of minutes. She claims I'm her guardian angel because I've pulled her from the razors edge and back into a healthy state of mind.
My only wish at this point were that I could honestly reflect the same passion and depth of emotion. Because the majority of my heart still belongs to my ex-love Sho who is and I'm afraid always will be my heart and souls' true love. sad With his return to this dinky little town deep within the heart of Texas my reaction to his phone call was enough to push me far beyond my comfort level. It took a three and a half mile run to shake it off but not enough to settle the stirring of emotions I've locked away since he broke my heart.
What a gloomy disposition I'm in because I cannot trust the emotions longing to be liberated, for the new love in my life, because of the return of the past love who is the reason they were locked away. Its amazing what time can do and what's even more fascinating is that in a matter of weeks my world has started to rebuild. Though the moral is high the trust in others is low and by trusting BamBam I feel that much is being risked. For the greater good of course and in due time I will be on my own two feet but as for now I stand with the help of another who is kind, gentle, and loving.
Oh what a soap operah my life would make. . . rolleyes
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