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...that you just have to hit something?

I used to yell at Víli for this all the time. He has a TERRIBLE temper and is known to put his fist right through walls, break furniture with his fist (including a mahogany table once), through things, and just break everything around him. It pisses me off because it is annoying and a little startling. Not only that, but very rarely are you ever that furious at the same time as someone else and you never see things their way in the moment, so all you can think is, "Damn, what the hell is his problem?"

Today I got so angry that I felt myself on the other side of those accusative glances and unspoken quips. I got pissed off by the most inane thing ever (which I will not share the specifics), and I became angry in public. It was already dark, but there were people around at a bus stop and I was holding a bottle of water. I was SO angry, just so wrathful and ultimately pissed, that I slammed my bottle on the ground, causing it to explode on a bunch of commuters.

When everyone started grumbling I said, "It is just ******** water!" and walked home instead of taking the bus. It really makes you feel like an idiot. On the other hand, I must say that I understand my brother now, because having a childish fit and destroying something really puts things into perspective and calms you down almost immediately.

I do not feel bad for the people at the bus stop. I shall sleep tonight without staying up in anger because I splashed them with spring water exploding off of concrete.

I have no idea what to type that follows that statement... good night.