Romanced and Confused!
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Okay here's the thing. I seriously never thought that anyone would actually ever fall in love with me ?or have any times of those kinds of feelings for me. So perhaps with that information you can see my delima. But unfortunately that's not the whole piece of the cake.
I don't really think badly about internet dating, but i don't condone it either.
A co-worker of mine, Dani, she found her love while playing W.o.W. Now they have been together for sometime now. They like dated a year, year and 1/2 online before ever meeting in person. And they clicked in real life too. He's from south Caroline, I even got to meet him. Nice guy. I know better than anyone that this sounds like something from one of my anime or manga shows, but they seriously did happen.?
I'm not saying that it's not possible that something like this would happen again for someone else or that it's possible, just that it's a little far fetched. For me at least and it happened to Dani and that gives me a little hope.
Hope which... i really don't have the right to carry i think.
I play Trickster, it's a game online, free, it's anime style and I really like it.
I try to play often because I want to lvl up my character and some of the people you meet on there are just great. It makes you feel that you're not alone and that someone somewhere has something in common with you for once.
Well I found someone that had something in common with me... actually alot of things. So many it was almost scary.
We've been hanging out a lot recently and today he confessed his feeling to me.
I must admit that i thought he was joking at first... but as the day progressed and we went around fight monsters to gain exp.... i relieved that he wasn't joking. He was serious and he said as much.
Now i've been told from along time ago that the person i would look for, a person to meet my standard, or like or whatever didn't exist and never would. Then this guy popped up.
He's... amazing. Everyone has flaws yeah I'm aware of that and sure enough he was them, lets me now that he's real. Him and I have so much in common, and like i said it's scary.
Now I've never pictured myself as someone to fall in love or anything, so i'm not sure what i feel, at least for the moment. I now I'm a little confused (how could someone like me?) and a little amazed (we have so much in common, it's almost like a soulmate-?....if i believed in such a thing.... i'd like too).
Really I'm at a complete loss, I've never been one for dating, and here I've got this guy on the internet willing to move to Madison Wisconsin for me?, cause i plan on going to school there and i'm afraid to be there alone. He lives in Massachusetts.
I'm blown away. I seriously thought that nothing like this would ever happen, even over the internet. I'm not really sure what to think. I've been burned so many times with my trusting ways that it's really really hard for me to true anyone anymore.
And now I got this guy, who's all into me, i'm lost. I don't know what to do. I've shut myself off so much from love that i don't even know if i can feel it anymore. Just about everyone I've ever loved has either died on me or betrayed me in someway.
So now what? Do I take this chance and possible get burned or find love? Or do I reject cause i'm so afraid of the world and feelings and left wondering what would've happened?
I don't even know if I can let myself be loved, I... I wonder if i'm not empty. I mean how can u tell if your falling in love or if its just infatuation. Especially with someone you've never seen or heard... Tho he did offer me his phone number.
I don't know, right now everything's a little messed up. Hopefully someone will comment, give their support or whatever. I need to think this through before I make a decision I think....
I wanna make the right choice, but who can i do that if I don't even know what i'm feeling at the moment?
I'll be stuff straightened out with me first, then I'll talk to him I guess...
I dunno
anyway i'm going to go find a brownie or something. Peace out heart sweatdrop 3nodding
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