I really am just trying not to scream out loud.
I apologize in advance it this bugs people or offense them, but since I’m so friggin’ pissed at the moment I don’t really care! All’s those people have to do is stop reading, it’s not my fault if anyone suffers emotionally or whatever after reading what I’ve typed.
The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly are sides that appear in all situation no matter how small they might be.
The Good: hmm I’m slowly starting to make friends at the University of Dubuque. UD has the program I want since I’d like to become a videogame designer. The teacher, Brad, for video game stuff, is frickin’ awesome- don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Free internet for the most part, who can argue about that. Thanksgiving and Christmas break will be coming soon, thank the big dude for small blessings. They do have game night here, tho I have unfortunately not been able to attend. You can come to class in costume on Halloween (always a plus).
The Bad: So far the pie on campus is nothing to get excited about, seriously! A lot of homework gets dish out. Only one place on campus that I’ve found makes good hot chocolate. There’s a lot of people here and some of them are apparently crazy (not the good kind of crazy either). There is not a vending machine in every building. Some of the women teachers are a little… er uptight (if we’re going about this the nice way). There are the occasional lame classes, but I think that’s pretty much every college (there’s all general ed courses, lol).
The Ugly: *sighs* Where do I begin, seriously. As some of you may know I’m living with my Grandmother at the current time and the old women is driving me nuts. Okay… that’s putting it mildly. Let’s just say this,… she’d drive the saneness person to commit suicide given enough time. Granted I wasn’t exactly sane when I came here, but seriously who is? She’s got me paying rent and I’m not allowed to lock my door. If I’m here, I have to go to church every Sunday. People aren’t allowed to touch her washer and she’s ruining my clothes. And since I can’t lock my room, she goes up and takes my clothes without my permission and washes them… ruining them. I use to have something that was a nice shade of lavender. I’m not sure how she did it, but it is now a bright hot pink and I’m less then amused about it! So besides ruining my clothes, what else is there, oh there is a whole list baby! Nothing is sacred, nothing is safe. Came back from school one day to find my passport and other important documents right out in the open! If that’s not enough there’s always the emotional attacks, like telling me that I’m a disappointment or a burden to my parents, when my parents have told me that they’re really proud of me. That s**t goes on 24/7 and that doesn’t stop at my Grandma telling me these awful things, but a lot of my other relatives too. Such lovely people don’t you think? I’m hated on, fine whatever, why the hell can’t they just ignore me instead. I do my best to ignore them, but it’s just so hard too, though I’ve done a pretty good job of it.
These people are the kind that can get you to cry so hard your nose starts bleeding. I would know, it just happened to me on Sunday Nov. 2nd. So after that little breakdown I still don’t feel any better. Actually I’ve barely got any sleep in 2 friggin’ weeks, so I’m tired and a little mad. I spent the day after Halloween on my knees for three hours scrubbing the upstairs bathroom floor and polishing the wood floors of the upstairs hallway. gonk I’m still sore from that
I’m doing what I can right now, checking around for a place to stay. I really like UD and I want to stay here, it’s a good school and I think that I could learn a lot. But my housing situation has to change or I’m definitely going to move back to Waterloo and that’s screwing over my education.
I’m checking out the dorm life, so hopefully they’ll let me in and pray that I get a single room. I seriously don’t want a roommate. If I had the money, I’d buy a house, but with the market being the way it is there isn’t a prayer in hell that I can get a house on my own or even with another person or two. I’m sorry, but people want $32,000 or more for a little whole in the wall that I’m sure with enough wind will fall over.
I’m just so sick of all this crap. I finally found a school that offers game design and it’s in Iowa. Talking to the teachers and looking at the over view of the program, they actually know what the hell they are talking about and I’m impressed. So I want to stay at UD even though there’s not a whole lot of family that believes in me or whatever, but all that could go away if I don’t get a different place to live.
I’m sure that some of you are like dude she’s just being over dramatic, haha wish I was dudes. If I stay in that house for another semester I’m afraid that I actually might do something stupid and that’s not like me at all.
I see that voting didn’t go that well and I’m sorry about that really I am. No one really knows how that s**t is going to affect their future. And I’m sorry if I seem a little selfish, but if you all could pray for me and that I get a single room dorm, it’d be much appreciated! I hope that this election year doesn’t turn out to be something that a good portion of the US regrets, tho I think that they might. There’s no way that we could survive a depression dudes, let’s hope that it doesn’t come to that.
Well thank you, I feel a lot better know that I’ve vented even though it doesn’t take care of any of the problems I have. Like all those papers due soon that I have yet to write or Christmas presents that I don’t have or have any money for. I see this year I’m going to be hoping for a miracle, something that I gave up on a long time ago. Well I wish you all the luck with your own lives dudes. Keep truckin’.
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