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I... I... I hate myself. I could never be happy, because I'll just ******** it up. Everything is my fault. I even pushed my girlfriend away from my life. I didn't want it to happen, but she could never forgive me for hurting her like that or take me back. Like I said before I was never meant to be in love I just ******** it up. *sighs* I feel like I need to smoke again. It always made me forget all the trouble and problems that I made in life. All I have now is my romance mangas, season sets of anime shows, my smokes (I haven't started just yet), and my shitty lonely life. *cries* My life is nothing to anyone or myself anymore. Even if she did take me back, no one would accept or like me anymore. Life hates me, people hate me, my family hates, and I hate myself.