well i got a job but it doesnt help with things at home, i dont get to see rebecca as much, which kinda hits me hard. today i had to go ho,me cause i was moving a door at work and i lost my balance i got to take monday off because it was rebeccas birthday, and we had some scary things happen, and now im worried about not being with rebecca and im afraid about if ill get to see her on our usual terms. i love her and i wont leave her for what happens.