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GET ME OUT OF HERE
god. i hate this, my mom just grounded me from seeeing becca "ever again" as she puts it scream . we were on the way to walmart to get some allen wrenches, to fix the weedeater because i only have standard and its a foreign peice of crap, so i needed metric, well we dont have metric. but anywho... we got to talking abiout the insurance cuz i have to go to bloomington every weekend, and right out of the gate she lost it, and we get to arguing, she yelled about chores and stuff and other things come up, and well the verdict is that i cant go to see becca after school, i can only see her after school hours this makes me sooooo, mad. the truth is that since the day i turned thirteen i have never been truly happy i was so lost i tried to commit sucuide atleast 10 times, i tried not to let my friends notice, the last thing i needed was for them to feel sorry for me, but after i met rebecca my life kinda perked up, shes the only person to get me to think twice about the military, ive always had a death wish, and i saw the military as my escape, but now my mom wont let me see the only person i ever care for anymore, i dont care for my self. i could rot in hell for all that i care for now as long as she remains happy. and right now she is the only thing that keeps me from taking myself of this equation called life. hopefully i can kiss a** really bad and get to see her again. grr now i just feel like becca will get fed up with me and leave me for someone else, some one better, some one whos not a loser.
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