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Ive been thinking of the up-coming Pre UIL concert.

Included with that Ive been thinking of my days back at Dessua.

With that I think about the people Ive met at the schools before I went to Dessua.

And how Ive forgotten them, losing contact little by little.

Thinking back after I just wrote that. I realize why I forgot them. It because I found friends to replace them. Not that they were better friends or anything. I mean no friend is like another. They are all different. Its just a void I have a habit of filling. I always find a "Best" friend that I attach myself. But why dont I do taht at WestView? Ive been going there for threee months, adn I still havent met a single person to call friend, only a bunch of aquintances.

Maybe that ish why I feel different here at WestView. I mean everytime I change schools I feel like I put on a different mask everytime. Even though most of them are similar. I mean they all know Hyper Vivian or Talk-all-Day VIvan and as always Loud Vivian.

But at Westview Ive only fell into one of my Hyper Attacks once (Note: Kimmeh will probably know what Im talking about). Well I dont know if you could count that once since it only lasted for well 2 minutes.

I feel like I lost my orginality. LIke I dont do The RubberBand of Revalation or porclaim that everyone should call meh Blue. I wonder now where did that VIvian go. I mean the Old Viivan resurfaces once in awhile but not very often.

I remember Six Grade at Dessua, I moved there from Cleburne on the 31st of October. I was being reunited with so many people from the old days when I went to Copperfiled. But yet I feel alone. Same ways I feel at WetView. Then I went to Seventh Grade and had Kimmeh for all of my classes, then I had a great friend. ALong with Sabrina. In Seventh Grade I spent all my time talking and laughing. In SIxth Grade I pretty much spent all my time reading.

THats what I do at WestView. I just read. Dont talk much just read. If Im not reading then Im pretty much just sitting there.

Why ish taht? Everyone at WestView ish like everyone elses friend. Unless your like really nasty or something but besides taht, no one seems mean to anyone else, its all the same. At Dessua there was an obvoius line where your enemies, aquintances and friends were.Not that that means everyone had an emeny, thats you Kimmehs. Although there seems to be alot of rivarly between schools.

Sighs, another thing that has been bothering meh ish Travis. I mean after going out with Chris I really didnt think anyone could be that shy. But Travis beening one to porve meh wrong ish extermely shy. Like an Elephant. Or a Giraffe in his case.
He immensely shy, like I probably say about 5 words to him at shcool and thats including Hi's.

GOsh Im probably going to break up with him. Man this feels like De Ja Vu. Im just hoping that it doesnt work out the way it worked out last year. Know whats? lIfe too hard, I still wish I was that Statue.

I havent wrote a journal in a while, I'll write some either next week or in like 3 days or so.