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Well Im done writing about my Love Life, unless if well enough people start commenting this entry.
Anyways this entry is about how Im feeling nowadays at WestView. I have to warn you readers that I may or may not exzaggrate on a few things. Hmmm, some feelings I have, I still dont feel like I really belong anywhere. I feel like an observer. Someone who can sit there and watch. A statue. Yet I feel unique, am I the only silent Statue of Westview? I think tht I am. Something else that my thoughts have given is a bit of a crush. To honest the guy I like Im not sure of his real name, but Ive been calling him Asain Dude for the last 2 weeks. And its not like he minds either. In all sense he answers to Asain Dude.
But with all good things comes bad things. Its a shame too because before I left Dessua I made a promise to Kimmy and Chris that I wouldnt make anymore enemies but I made one. I didnt mean to but he just did not get the message. His names Angel. And I swear I feel like wringing his neck everytimes hes near me. On the bus, I sit in the second seat of the bus. And I put my backpack next to me so Angel wont sit there but he comes up next to me. And then throws my backpack in my face. "Let me out" I say to him, but he wont so I jump over to the seat infront of me. Asain Dude comes and see him sitting in our seat and he has this face that says "What the ******** is he doing my seat?" Anyways thank the Clouds that Angel gets off the first stop. Angel actually was about to stick gum in my hair. Then Asain Dude came and sat next to me. Theres this other guy too, but he kinda looks like Chris's brother. No. He looks just like Chirs's brother that is if Christian, yes Chris's mom named her Kids Cristopher and Christan, were as tall as Chirs. Chris is older than Christan.
Other thoughts, well I finaly notice what they were saying about Dessua. Ive heard a couple remarks about how Ghetto Dessua. I never thought of Dessua Ghetto but now I have to admit it that Dessua does seem a bit Ghetto compared to well WestView. Everything at WestView seems some how Safer. Like they can wear solid Red shirts without accused of being part of a gang. And at Dessua there was fights like everyday. So full of Drama. Lots of enemies there. I mean everybody at Dessua had a friend as well as a enemy. Everyone at WestView is everyone else friend. Gosh it feels so fake. I dont think that I want to be a part of it all. Maybe thats why Im a observer. Maybe. I guess I just feel more at peace to see than actually go in. Like the mysterouis cave that everyone wonders about but is scared to go in. Am I like that? Am I scared to fit in? To be the same? I dont know. I use to be the AirHead back at Dessua. The girl that could never be serouis, always laughing at something. And making everyine else laugh. Except now I feel Quiet. I feel like I dont care anymore. I do in some points. I just want to observe. To no pay too much attention. To just be a statue.