Ya know, you don't have to read any of this, or even comment on it.
So, why bother?
Though, here's my two cents.
Since I can't reply via PM.
I know I don't deserve any forgiveness, but I can still ask and just get denied.
I only try so hard because I want to try and fix what I did, but it's dumb because I can't. I can't fix anything. I had sex with William, and it was dumb, and I won't bother explaining into it because 1. You won't care, and 2. You won't believe it. So I won't bother. But I never told you about it because when things were going so well, I knew it would just completely ruin it. Even if it had come from me and not him, it would have destroyed everything.
Other than lying, William was my last mistake, and that happened in February.
I lied to you about William, and I lied to you about Stephen. I just wanted to avoid more drama, and more pain.
I'm not clinging to the idea of us working, because I already know there are too many obstacles in the way. I never really clung. One reason why I was reluctant to get back into the "I love you"s. Because I knew if I fell back into it, I would fall hard, and I did. I think I cared more for you this time than I ever have. Which is why I'm so reluctant to let go. I stopped clinging a long time ago. It's more of.. small hopes. But don't worry, I'm sure it will go away fast enough.
It's just hard to un-love someone.
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