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when was that, two thursdays ago? (wait, i can pick out days already?) i was on the gsxr and kept thinking, if i just turn slightly to the right or left, i won't have to go through withdrawal anymore. left would be an oncoming car and right would be some big old pine trees and it would just look like a wreck or something i did think about the person in the oncoming car though--that'd be really horrible for them so the trees would be the better alternative so then i started thinking about the trees as basically the only alternative but then what if i missed? then it'd just hurt a lot--which isn't any better and i brought that up because every opportunity i see, i keep thinking about doing it i dont want to die with a needle in my arm or by jumping off of a building it would have to look like an accident that way they could tell matt, it was an accident

Posted by: mxvsatv Thu Sep 04, 2008 @ 06:09pm

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Commented on: Thu Sep 04, 2008 @ 06:20pm


	actually, a motorcycle accident is still the best way people already think they're dangerous i could be riding home from class (with books and notes for that day and a paper that i started on wouldn't hurt--that way, its like it wasn't planned) there's no drugs in my system and yeah, i'm going through a divorce now, but if i show the people around me that i'm handling it, then it would still just look like an accident i hit 170mph the other day oh s**t.. why would i be driving home at 170 or faster? okay.. so there's still a slight flaw well.. maybe not, i mean, i'm 22 years old and have a gsxr--so why wouldn't i try to go fast? but who would i give everything to? heh.. well half of everything, i'm probably going to lose half my stuff or not, i actually can't see her doing that so maybe i'll keep everything in her name so that she can distribute it out for me and i probably should make this private, except i care less and less and in a psychotic way, that actually is a sane solution to a problem, just not the best one but my plan is flawless

Commented on: Thu Sep 04, 2008 @ 06:29pm


	s**t.. ashley though i guess i could use this opportunity to be with her but i dont want to, i know i dont have feelings of love for her i also dont want to try a long-distance relationship again though, you would be closer in iowa and i could more easily pick you up and somehow you actually do love me and are sure of it no, really, i should just chill by myself for a while without the fluzies even

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Commented on: Thu Sep 04, 2008 @ 06:44pm


	Fox_Riders_Girl Wrote: mxvsatv Wrote: how are you doing so far? You don't have to worry about me if we're not together. And if you have questions about filling out the paperwork, you can call my attorney. I put his business card in the envelope for you. You need to fill it out and send it to him. I think I'd do better if we didn't talk anymore, so just go through him if you needed anything. My things are out of your house and I don't think I took anything of yours by mistake. What I left there you can keep. If you want me to throw it away I can come back and get rid of it for you. I just figured you'd want the coffee pot and some of the other things. Oh, Ashley can have my helmet. I won't need it. i miss you except your probably going to delete the message or something--unless i give it to your attorney, who'd shred it to pieces cause that means he's getting no more money but thanks for the edge

Commented on: Thu Sep 04, 2008 @ 07:37pm


	wow.. that was a crude thought i dont even think i can mention it

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Commented on: Thu Sep 04, 2008 @ 07:44pm


	aww.. he fell asleep on my lap, and he's blowing a little snot bubble makes me want to take a nap too

Commented on: Thu Sep 04, 2008 @ 08:03pm


	phew, got him to bed without waking him up

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Commented on: Fri Sep 05, 2008 @ 06:18am


	too hungry to eat and too tired to sleep

Commented on: Fri Sep 05, 2008 @ 07:07am


	...no spending half an hour deciding where to throw your ring must be normal

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Commented on: Fri Sep 05, 2008 @ 07:30am


	********... why do i even keep drugs at my house?

Commented on: Fri Sep 05, 2008 @ 07:46am


	pretty sure i dont remember ever losing partial vision before this is.. weird but gaia forums get old quick--though, they did entertain me for quite a while today

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Commented on: Fri Sep 05, 2008 @ 07:55am


	oohh... just need to eat soething duh xd

Commented on: Fri Sep 05, 2008 @ 05:14pm


	i dont even remember what sarah looked like

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Commented on: Sat Sep 06, 2008 @ 10:58am


	...stop talking to me, stop talking to me, stop talking t o me i dont want to and i dont want to hear about it anymore and i don't ******** fail, why did i do that?

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