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my sorry is meaningless? at least i don't hand them out like party-favors like you do and really, i guess i just meant sorry that you feel that way i've been having a hard time deciding what was better or worse to do next--your both apparently sick over the whole thing what exactly was i supposed to do? it was worth a try anyways

Posted by: mxvsatv Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 04:17am

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Commented on: Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 04:43am


	i've actually found that most of my indecisiveness was because i dont know who the ******** i am.. but i'm figuring it out now and it isn't really what i was expecting its actually quite terrifying but somewhat of a relief just to know i guess

Commented on: Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 04:48am


	i feel like a walking-disaster now..

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Commented on: Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 04:51am


	can't ******** breathe now.. all my ribs hurt its okay, dying inside always hurts

Commented on: Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 04:54am


	..this is weird.. i'd rather all my ribs be cracked--something feels really wrong

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Commented on: Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 04:55am


	i'm not even interested in the dulling effect from drugs which i guess is good

Commented on: Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 05:26pm


	a little late getting out of bed.. but its still only 10:30 its not like i have anything to do anyways at least my ribs dont all hurt, now just the two do

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Commented on: Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 09:30pm


	you really just don't understand but maybe it'll be better to just avoid each other for now

Commented on: Wed Oct 01, 2008 @ 04:14am


	do i try to say goodnight? or is that worse.. or what? do i put up an offer to talk tomorrow? cause i can just walk away-but i'm not going to be happy about it

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Commented on: Wed Oct 01, 2008 @ 04:36am


	sooo... they're physically and emotionally upset and i try to fix it--i think it would have been fine, i have an actual non-digital notebook i could have written in and could have kept it hidden--and was hoping things would go back to normal for the past week and a half, you've hated me, you just won't admit to it and i wasn't paying a whole lot of attention to you at first since.. well, i was a little confused still myself--but then i did catch on, and i try to make it better, and now you won't even ******** talk to me just because i decided that i'm happy with D you always say that i don't care about you well you always say " i hope your happy" and just the same, i can tell you that i do care, and repeatedly, and you won't believe it you never wish i'm happy--its like some sarcastic remark that you make when you imagine snapping the bones of whoever i'm currently with or maybe your a homophobe or something, i dont really know--you won't talk about it and i doubt you will now you have no idea what its like to imagine being with you, and being happy and having everything work out for you, but always feel like something's missing i haven't had those dreams where i'm looking for that object i can't find

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