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Its true. And I've had a very very bad day, mostly because of Carl and everyone complaining to me. Like its my job to fix the world. Jesus Im so heated right now. HAve you ever just wanted to scream 'What the s**t?" just to feel better even for only a second. Yea, im there. Im disgusted and pissed at the way this week has been turning out so far. I've been biting my tongue, but I've had enough.

So, without further a-do. Heres the ******** YOU journal entry I've been dying to write. And I really dont care who this offends. Odds are, if your offended... ******** you anyways. Dont read my s**t, go get your daily dose of drama elsewhere. Im not a ******** soap opera. Get a god damn life, and leave me alone. Now, if your honestly curious about the things I write here, and your an intelligent person. Then by all means stay. I could use a good debate right now.

So, the number one thing that has been pissing me off is obviously peopel complaining. Yes, this is like calling the kettle black. Im a hypocrit here. Deal with it. Unlikje the rest of the world, I try to FIX whats wrong. I dont complain to 'magical Jodo' and his non-existant life saving powers. Im only one ******** man. I work all day, go home, smoke, drink, and sit in the god damn dark to be left alone. Why? Cause I dont want to deal with this s**t and this is the only small ******** happiness I have left in the corrupt peice of s**t world!All your complaining does is piss me off. I cant fix your problems. My hands are tied and I dont have the willpower to fix them. In the case of Dark, YES I could fix this. Will I? NO. Im done working my a** to the ground for nothing.

Edit: More to come later.

To continue on...

Another thing that is pissing me off to NO god damn end is people who are all ******** depressed. Oh boo-hoo. ******** you, peice of s**t. Cry all you want, it isnt going to fix anything until you get up off your a** and make an effort. And then some of you have the nerve to turn around and want the rest of US to stop acting depressed? OH MY ******** GOD! No! I wont stop. I can do whatever I want and until you go where I've been and do the things that I do on a daily basis I dont want to hear your s**t. Shut up, go cry somewhere and leave me out of it. You make me want to take a rock and smash your face.

And for the love of god, the next person who complains about my smoking and drink will get just that! A rock to the f-a-c-e! You know what? If those are the worse things that I do, then so be it. Its my special little way of killing myself slowly, one day at a time. Least i have the guts to do it and not hide the fact.

I am not an easy man to piss off, but all of you are pushing me to my ******** limit. Somedays, I wish I wouldnt wake up just so I wouldnt have to deal with this s**t! Everyone complains to me, or says the dumbest s**t and it makes me want to puke. Im not wearing my happy little mask anymore you ********. Im tired of being the good guy. In case you havent noticed, Im a bitter ******** individual. Im bitter at you, Im bitter at me, Im bitter towards the whole damn world. Let me live my ******** life in peace. Let me be alone.

Tonight, or first thing in the morning Im going to have a long talk with you Dark and Mr. Carl about the things YOU do to piss me off. Oh, it wont be pretty either. As a matter of fact, you better hope I dont catch you when your sleeping or in the dark. Cause im about to lose the last restraint I ever ******** had. God help you all!

So, In conclusion: ******** you all. ******** you for everything you stand for. ******** all you good natured people who do nothing except talk about how it will get better. ******** all you people who want to complain about stupid s**t. And most of all, ******** me for being the most god damn honest person in the world for blessing you with the insight of an emotionless husk of a man. I hope you all rot and ******** die.

Yours Truely
~Craig.