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you keep thinking i'm jealous of him.. no, i'm really not.. i had so much more than him at 17 a truck, a job, long-term girlfriend, lots of friends, wasn't grounded or suspended at any time, got do drag race in my truck.. go out at night to the bonfire's to have parties... i'm also sure i was smarter.. i really dont feel as much jealousy over you as i thought.. i mean.. i was just telling you what to do.. i listen to your stories without problems--even though you can't handle when i talk about the same things .. and i accept that my time with you is over, and i usually like you more as a friend--the usually is because you have a strange knack for blatantly pissing me off... but at least as i get older i tone it down less... if i didn't know better.. i'd say your purposely trying to make me jealous it wasn't working.. so now your picking on my masculinity... well go ahead and try, because i'm comfortable with myself again, you can try to break me, but being sick so long and dealing with D, gave me a chance to learn things i never even knew about myself i'd probably share all of that with you, but you only ever talk about.. crap.. forgot his name.. chris.. no.. you just said it too.. well him. i might have fried my brain a little.. but it still works

Posted by: mxvsatv Mon Dec 01, 2008 @ 11:08pm

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Commented on: Tue Dec 02, 2008 @ 04:22am


	night because i didn't get home exactly when i usually do because the roads have black ice on them and i'm driving a rear wheel drive truck with no weight in the back? your right.. should have driven faster.. broken my s**t, and walked home, that would have been much quicker.. and i dont get it, i cooperate, participate in you talking to him, its nice to know your happy and be part of it i didn't realize i had to actually shake you and yell "I'M SO HAPPY YOUR HAPPY" and.. i was only negative because he's acting suspicious and i no longer trust him.. but i didn't even bring that up today! i was all hopeful with you at first, until he gave you that bullshit line and then disappeared for a few days sorry for being suspicious and not wanting you to obliterate your happy

Commented on: Tue Dec 02, 2008 @ 05:43pm


	i'm so tired of explaining myself, only to have someone completely misinterpret it yeah, part of the problem is that i suck at explaining how i feel about things or even organizing my thoughts, but i dont think that deserves for 3/4ths of what i say to be retold completely wrong i guess.. if your going to ask me something, it needs to be on my analysis of spearman's rho for a data set, or my interpretation of the capitalist system in countries of differing socioeconomic status. hell, i can tell you how the muscles of a finger work, better than i can describe even my current thoughts its aggravating enough without someone trying to tell me what i think

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Commented on: Tue Dec 02, 2008 @ 06:25pm


	ehhh go away strange feeling of love why the hell did you come up? you finally open up again yesterday.. a little.. which made the connection less foggy.. but its completely closed off again cause i'm blocking it--except it keeps oozing back out and not the kind of love where your dating or anything, like.. give a st about the other person kind but i dont want to give a st anymore, its so frustrating i dont know anyone who is as frustrating as you--its like.. well, i just told you way to much you know how to piss me off, exactly what to do, better than anyone, including .. "it" who has disappeared completely lately.. so i'm kinda worried.. but she's tough, i bet she's fine loves being independent, so she can go for it i'm still mad.. but by tonight, i'll probably be over it i just cannot keep talking to you (directly) angry, it sucks, then you get upset, then i get more upset than i initially was.. its just not good but i should be on tonight.. or on the drive home from school even.. i donno.. of course.. still no idea if the internet is out or not.. stupid comcast piece of st ****** line or modem, dont care.. but they're charging me to fix the faulty equipment they gave me.. unless i fix it myself.. which i might do.. so they can piss off if the modem they gave me isn't theirs and the cable line to my house isn't theirs that was long.. its funny.. i had a really good day at work yesterday got recognized for going out of my job and fixing something and saving lots of time andmoney fr them.. then i come home and its all blown matt was even in bed already.. i didn't get to have my goodnight kisses or songs or anything such crap xp

Commented on: Tue Dec 02, 2008 @ 09:18pm


	hmm... kinda wondering when my heart rate is going to stop increasing.. i mean.. i'll be dead by the time i get off work. . there's no way it can stay up this high for probably more than another 2 hours and i'm freaking sitting.... damn.. thats what you get for not keeping up with the coke habbit.. at least i'm awake.. so now i wont ******** up at work thats good..

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Commented on: Tue Dec 02, 2008 @ 09:33pm


	knew you'd do that.. but actually.. i have to go to work anyways.. so i figured that 5 minutes wasn't exactly worthwhile

Commented on: Wed Dec 03, 2008 @ 06:51pm


	i think i could have slept all day and still be tired

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Commented on: Wed Dec 03, 2008 @ 07:01pm


	hehehehe! apparently, Matt likes Rancid. He'd probably like Smashmouth too. ...Jiggling his little butt and singing along. I hope they dont curse, but I actually dont think they do, Gina would definately beat me if Matt started cursing--its not my fault i'm surrounded by cursing all day at work though.. rolleyes hehehe now i got him to head bang.. but.. he mostly just shakes his head to the side like he's saying no.. thats okay.. i dont want him to get sick or something hehe, there, i gave him the guitar hero guitar, so now he can pretend to play it xd thats even funnier he's such a jester

Commented on: Thu Dec 04, 2008 @ 10:11pm


	hehehehe! I dont know who took that picture, but its damn funny. Rocky's stretched out about the same as me, and he's like.. 12 pounds, so cute! Why can't he be little again? a 68 pound baby with a fat head isn't as cute xp

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Commented on: Fri Dec 05, 2008 @ 07:10pm


	hmm.. is she talking about me or what?

Commented on: Fri Nov 17, 2017 @ 09:22pm


	Ok... i think i figured out who D is now..... thats ok to forget again, that whole time period is ok to forget

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