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So, im at work again. Stuck on watch until 8am. Again. Seriously, its like the world is out to piss me off. Im starving too.

-sigh- But, thats ok. Better than being at my house right now. Im tired of dealing with Johanna. One second she's all over me. Hugging, kissing, telling me how cute I am... and the next, its like im not even there. She only says those things when she wants something, or is on the verge of being kicked out of the house by Carl or Dark. Im being used. I hate being used, I hate it so much. I feel like im stuck in a rut though. At this point, even if I am being used, its the only positive attention I get. No one else looks at me like that anymore. Granted, I think she's faking...

Why does life have to ******** be so hard some days? I dont even want to go home anymore. And when I do, I cant sleep! Being at work is no fun because most of the people I work with are all assholes. I hate this place. Stuck in a tiny a** room, cold as s**t, and ******** alone. Hell, even the other guy on watch isnt even around. Where's he at? ******** if I know. Not here though. Not keeping me company in the god damn cold.

I could seriously use a friend right now. Or a hug. Something. Some kind of presence besides me here all alone where my mind can wander. I have a head ache. Stress just keeps building up and up. I got in trouble again today. THe power went out at my house and I missed an appointment. Everyone at work thinks im a shitbag, and I do these things on purpose. I really dont. Most of the time its just pure bad luck. The worst things seem to happen to me, and its affecting my work. Im definatly not going to stay in the Navy once this last year is up. Im getting out before it kills me.

My body hurts from work today. I worked a lot, and still got written up. I dont understand why these things happen to me. I always say that this s**t will make me stronger down the road, but its too much. Way to much for me to handle right now. God I jsut want to cry. cant take this s**t... cnat...

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Edit: Been awake for a long time now. Went home to watch some Naruto, only to get the fateful knock at the door. I wont go into details. Im sure all the gossip queens I live with will eventually leak the mundane details to everyone anyways. Needless to say, this shitty night has reached my top ten list of all around worst days ever.

In fact, its placing at the #2 spot currently. The only reason it didnt get number one (yet) is because I have yet to recieve a physical scar.

Though that comes later when the blow finally sinks in.