Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

Well the first journal entry. I never really thought I would ever write one, but I seem to have an abundance of time as of late. Well today was just another trudge through life until college that doesnt necessarily suck but no longer intrests me. It seems like the more i actually try not to try I get farther than if i actually try to try. Hmmm it doesnt make sense but then again what does anymore? It would seem as though it would be a miracle for me to keep a friend for longer than a few months as it seems that I have a tendency to say the wrong things and have a twisted sense of humor that no one but me finds funny anymore. I think that after 3 months i should just consider starting new over and over again. It might save a lot of awkward short one liner conversations which involve me trying to patch everything up but always making myself look foolish. Over and over I have considered just stop getting online but then a glimpse of hope comes through only to be nothing more than my own imagination tricking me. I wonder what life would be if I had never said yes that one time and became a part of this website. Would it have been better? Worse? Well Im here now and that is all that matters. I wonder if anyone will actually read this? This is pretty long and pointless thoughts out of my head. I guess that is the whole idea of a blog to just hear what other people have to say so that we know that we are not the only ones who think that. Well it seems like this really is too long for anyone to actually read. I guess until another time......