Omg, I almost had a crisis this evening!! It's what I get for being disorganized and putting things off AND lying to my parents. All bad habits!!!!! But I figured things out and I'm happy.
I could have choked on my dreams last night. They were wonderful in the most horrifying way. They only confirm what I already knew. But things are so wonderful now that if I speak up I know it'll only upset the balance I've only just found. My silly heart will tip the scale once again, I just know it.
I seem to have a habit for finding knights in the oddest places. The president of ACV is apparently a knight, and has offered me his sword whenever I need it. This one thing reminded me so much of the glory days of Matt that I blushed more than I have in a while. I love knights. They make me feel treasured and adored. They make me still want to be a princess, when I thought I had thrown off that mentality. Perhaps I've only entered a new castle? We'll see. Because, in a way, I want to throw off that immature fantasy. My high school version of that is becoming far FAR too real. I almost want to transport everyone into the story so that they could be dealt with as their actions deserve.
But no, I've left that behind. I shouldn't think of it anymore. It'll only upset me. And isn't the reason I made this account to get away from those silly, childish things that were pulling me down? I'm in college. I will spread my wings in a new way and become the angel I wish to be.
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Hachikai
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