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I was not expecting this in the least! I have fumbled around in the dark arts, and I now know why they are called, "dark arts." I was able to summon a spirit, a scepter to be more specific, who was nameless. I used a Ouija board to communicate with it, and I asked it to possess the voodoo dolls I had created. The good news is it worked. The bad news is it worked. Ever since it worked, I've had trouble sleeping. As I'm about to drift off, I'll start convulsing uncontrollably, and it feels like I'm going to vomit. I cannot sleep. I have named this spirit, it's name is now Chaos. I found out that while this spirit had a body, it was a female. This female, I have not yet learned the real name, but now I cannot get the feeling as if a rock is in my gut and someone is looking at me constantly, to go away. I don't care. I should care that my physical body is being tormented, but I made a deal. I had Chaos possess the voodoo doll of Samiwavamp94, and I hope it works. I am forcing Chaos to bring nothing but joy and happiness to Samiwa, regardless of the toll it takes on me. I learned that the limit of Chaos is 12 dolls, so I mush choose carefully. I asked what Chaos wants in return for it's services, and all it did was repeatedly spell out "Flesh." I don't know what this means, but Chaos will leave me alone while I am with my lover tomorrow. I will see if I am truly possessed, and have Chaos with me part of the visit. I want Chaos to grant me power, and ability that I haven't had. Soon, I will descend into Necromancy, the blackest of magic. My soul will be tainted, as it is supposed to be. I do this because it is who I am.....right? I do not remember entirely who I am, due to amnesia a while ago, but....this seems to be something I would do, so I am just following the path laid for me. I do not entirely wish to follow it, but I do it for others around me. I only hope that after I give my flesh and soul to Chaos, that the 12 I select are happy for eternity. I will pay all their prices in the afterlife, for in my eyes they are deserving of eternal happiness, as they have tried to give me in their own ways. So far, Samiwa is the only one on this list, the other 11 are yet to be crafted.......Once I get into necromancy, I will do everything in my power to bring good to those I care about, that is all I am interrested in.