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weeping willow why do you care of my demise?
an angel spreads it's wings out as it cries.
my death was worthy of such a wreched soul.
i only wished to be buried in earth's deepest hole.

weeping willow why do you weep.
i'm happy now that im in eternal sleep.
when death came i full willingly jumped into his scyth
i nolonger wanted this life.

death is all that i deserved.
you might think me a bit disterbed
however, someone as that wouldn't think to sceme.
the death that i began to dream


i'd gouge out my eyes, chop off my toes.
sounds a bit crazy i do suppose.
cut out my tongue, then my ears.
a normal person would brake down in tears.

as i lied bleeding to death.
i could feel all the pleasure release in that last breath.
that is when i realized i'd never see you again.
and now, how much pain i was in.

i reached out to what i believed was you.
as i fell pitifully i withdrew.
cloaked in black my future was in.
how could i commit such a devious sin?

for you see i'm not insane.
i had full vision on never breathing again.
i didn't have you in the beggining, now not the end.
if it did hurt you, it's not what i did intend.

i'm no longer a part of your beautiful sunshine.
i can nolonger pretend you are mine.
my body numb, i can no longer feel your soft touch.
i can now no longer see the person i loved so much.

weeping willow reaching deep toward the silver sea.
revive me and bring them to me.
allow my eyes to stop bleeding, so i can see again.
give me back my tongue and ears, so i can taste their kiss
and hear my lovers voice, give me the chance to restart,
---to rebegin