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Candle-Lit Homocide

Im drowning in the water.
As I carve my wrists like a potter.
Sculpting as I create red ripples in my tomb.
Due to this depression of you, I assume.
As I lie naked, my blood streaming.
The thought of in my head leaves me screaming.
The room morbid and dark filled with a candel lit glow, with black candels as dark as night.
And other candels -a snowy-white-
Melting into the freezing water-mixed red liquid.
My mind drifts into eternal sleep, each eye covered with a lid.
Forever shut tight.
Nolonger will they see the morning light.
Death castes its eternal voodooed spell.
As my body floates into hell.
I deserve this treacherous end.
For Hell is the only place God could send
This bleeding corpse of sins.
What a disqusting web this widow spins.
I hear a voice yelling spred your wings.
This voice screams as it sings.
But it is too late, I've already fallen too deep.
Into this scorching eternal sleep.
I've killed myself without thought.
And look what that has brought.
Tears from the distorted people that loved me.
Why didnt they help me to be free.
In a sickening way,
They are the reason I have fallen away.
My vanity-dissapeared.
My dreams seared.
Everything-- gone.
I am now Satan's spawn.
I am now where I belong.
A place that awaited me for so long.
A spot next to my vile King.
This angel's clipped each wing.
I am trapt.
Almost like he's using a leather strap.
I am completely numb.
Look at what a monster I have become.
I am happy now, don't take me please.
I feel no pain, no disease.
I am imotionless--immortal.
In this dark-pitlike portal.
I have a garden with flowers of black.
The only color my heart does not lack.
I am happy now that I dont have you.
I no longer have to suffer the pain I had to go through.
For so long I suffered.
With you, a thick blanket, I was trapt and covered.
You were a thick, unwanted paste,
I still would not want to taste.
It was either you or I that had to dissapear.
So it was I who had to become completely sheer--
It was I who had to dissapear.