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Dear Diary,

Yeah I know I havent written In a long time but I've been writing in a journal rebecca sent me...Every month we write in it then send it back.
I cried when I read her entries..
Well I had a black bf 4 1 day then broke up with him. he seemed ok in history class but then when he was texting me I felt uncombitable (sp badly), he was talking about sex, and how he was the 'right' guy, wanting to such my a** and stuff like that. I dont want to have sex in the 9th grade or 10th, mayb not even 11th or 12th. I want to wait for the right guy and trust me I'll know. You see my mom has this like sixth sense and man is it dead on. well I have that. I'm really working on it but like in relationships I know if its goin work or not, I just know. He pretty much was text stalking me after words, see it was a long weekend. Then he said he was goin kiss me when we get back to school, I told NO, but he was like no I'm going kiss you and show u we have sparks. I was alittle freaked out, I mean if he was goin force himself on me and kiss me, what happens if he tried something more. I told him I'd kick his a** if he did, thankfully he got the picture. BTW he didnt kiss me when we got back, but half of me is still scared. He doesnt text stalk me anymore but he still texts me alot.

I went to church with my mom today. I kind of liked it but man down here in the south are they RELGOUIS, Damn I was scared alittle cus even teens my age were gettin into it. I might go to wednesday youth group idk I really want to cuz they seem nice but I'm scared cuz i'm shy.

Well I know this was a short entry but I just got out of the shower and I need to get dressed. Plus do some of my homework that I have..

O yeah I might be tryin out for colorguard, keep ur fingers crossed that my shyness doesnt scared me away...