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Dear Diary,

Damn I really need to write in this more. I dont know how to remember though. Well I'm out of school biggrin . Bad thing is its only summer, I still have like 3 years before I actually gradute. WEll Next year I'll be in the 10th grade biggrin . What, I'm happy, Its a grade closer to graduting lol.

Lets see. Exams. Every class I had had an exam. blah. Art, History, English, Geometry, Gym were like really easy. I cant really remember science but I think that one was easy as well. Spanish was too bad, I mean I knew alot on it but Idk, it could have been worse. Journalism I think I failed. I know its an easy class but I didnt study one single bit and I wasnt here when they learned it, Well I did know that Staff part.

I still yet to find a place to ride my dirt bike crying . Its really hard, I'm going crazy from not riding. It really kills me. I really want to ride but I dont know where. Hopefully I can find a place soon, or else I'll go insane. Wait I'm already insane, then should I say normal, blah. Anyways yeah.

Haji wouldnt leave me alone. I was crying so much cuz he wouldnt stop terxting me. I wanted to kill myself. I was so scared to go to school. He has been leaving me alone for a few days, I told him I would call the police. Now his brother is text stalking me as well. He started texting me, asking me out when we've never met and he didnt even know my name. I dont know what is up with black guys liking me, but I'm hating it if that means I get 2 stalkers. Diary I really dont know what to do. Hopefully they just both leave me alone or I dont know what I'll do.

Well that just made me depressed. I dont my mom I cut and was depressed. She yet to make an opointment with an doctor for depression and bi polor. Does she not care? I want to feel normal. I dont want to always be depressed. I think If I keep going like this I might actually kill myself and it scares me. Again this is really making me depressed so i'm sorry diary but I'm switching topics.

I made color guard. Me and Kathryn both. Down here in alabama she's like one of my best friends. She's Great at singing and drawing. She been over so much. She stayed over a couple weeks ago Saturday and Sunday and went to school together. Lol we've been wearing each others clothes. Actually right now I have a bathing suit top, white shoes, Jean shorts, a Tank top, and a yellow shirt of hers. SAdly right now she has one of my jean mini skirts, a B4MV shirt (gasp), a pair of shoes, and a bra. DAMN. Lol. (shes not going out with Stephen, sorry cant remember what I said in my last entry).

I actually had a blast today. I went to Alabama Adventures with my brother and his friends plus Mir Mir. It was fun. We got rained out. Lol I liked that. I have a summer pass so I can go back anytime. I'm so going when Boys Like Girls and Kris Allen are there. I love both. I have to free passes for friends so I might take Kathryn with me. It'd be more fun then what it was today. I felt a bit lonely but all was good. 4laugh

Ok so I dont know if you know this or not but my 16th birthday is in 7 days YAY. I'm so happy. Though I'm not having a party. I dont really have good goood friends to have a party down here. Its sad rebecca wont be here. Now we cant get in trouble like we did last year. Plus we didnt do anything for her birthday either. Though good thing is I hear, from her, that she bought me alot of great presents.

I think I forgot to tell you, I'm going up to michigan a week after my birthday. I'm so happy. I'll get to see some of my friends again. xd .

idk what to write about now. sweatdrop . lol. well I guess then I'm going to stop here for now. I promise I'll try to write more. I must likely will write after my birthday, or that day.

Ok so ttyl