Well,my mom saw my arms over the weekend.I know she knows that I cut myself.I do NOT want to tell her because it'll spread through the family like an electric current.She'll also make me see a shrink.Know it all bastards.
I keep having a dream where I tell Adam how I..well,you get the picture.I keep getting the idea he does it too.It's totally weird.
This week I found out like half my family used to cut themselves.Yeah,what a messed up life I'm in.Sometimes I just want to die.I'm depressed for no reason sometimes,and others,I just get so pissed off I get depressed.
I really want to tell Adam,but I'm afraid he'll tell somebody and then freak out and never even look in my direction again.This problem has me in knots..I don't know what to do.My mom won't seem to be a big help and I'm afraid I'll lose Adam.Then I'll really have nothing left.Then I'll probably cut myself even worse.What should I do?
SammyBammy · Tue Nov 30, 2004 @ 09:28pm · 0 Comments |