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I have no internet at home.
My mom said it would be back in a week max.
It's been months.
At least I think so I can't really remember.
I'm at Orlando's house.
Kelvin left.
Orlando and Jessie are playing games.
Jessie keeps talking about his new girlfriend.
I'm happy for him.
Maybe now he'll be less depressed.
Since it isn't a long distance relationship.
Mozart-Requiem look it up.
Tomorrow is Chyanne's birthday.
I think I spelled her name wrong but whatever.
I'm bored.
The highest my mood has been all day was an 8.
Which is pretty high for me.
Most days are 3's.
I haven't slept in.......a while I can't remember.
Orlando just went to sleep.
Now what will we do.
Me and Jessie I mean.
I just found a passion in bongos today.
You ever feel like you should have done something but you don't.
I'm sure you do we all do.
Even when the moment feels right and natural we still don't.
Most humans have a high curiosity level but we all fear rejection.
Which is where regret comes in so in turn we all live humble lives.
Or try, that doesn't even make sense to me when I re-read it.
Will it make sense to you when you read it.
Will you actually look up the song I asked you too.
I watched a shitty movie today Tower Heist.
I'f you haven't watched it yet don't
Mozart-Lacrimosa look it up.
That's twice now I've asked you for something.
Yet you never ask for something in return do you.
I think that's why we all like writing to nothing.
Or something that doesn't respond just nods and listens.
We all speak never to be heard?
No another lame attempt at me being a sage.
I've been too stupid to pretend I'm wise to many mistakes.
Too much regret humility isn't always the path to salvation.
I never know what to say in those awkward moments.
When you think someone is reading your mind.
You know their not but their eyes tell you otherwise.
Maybe that's just me.
Moonlight Sonata.
I don't get sad I just start really letting my mind go.
People say I'm pretty depressing.
My subconscious must be sad I guess.
I feel creative right now I wish I was home to write.
Though it's always pretty lame.
I will put my lame stories on gaia one day.
Well my faithful no one or nonverbal someone Ta Ta for now.