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What happens when unparalleled unconditional love meets unrequited love!!
Horrible times!!!
That I will remember forever (Hopefully)
In life I had no religion except for the heavy metal gods!!!
I don't know how I feel waaaay to distracted to feel bad.
I will reread this one day and wish I could feel like this later.
It's 2 am the moon looks beautiful the night air smells wonderful, and I'm texting!!!
Not just anyone noo and important someone!!!
I was also texting my bestie!!! >.> we ran out of things too say though!
So she started talking to her bf who is also my buddies!!! Amazing right? WRONG!
It makes the only woman I want sad which makes me sad which is no good right?
I would gladly absorb all her pain and suffering if it were only possible!!
She doesn't feel the same we aren't together!!! T-T sad no?
I think so but ehhhhh who knows what the future will have in store!!!!!!!!!!!
The flame of youth still burns bright mrgreen
Probably nothing will happen though crying I know I am a downer sometimes! sweatdrop
Oh what to do when your alone but surrounded by people?
Simple answer speak up biggrin
Speak the words and I shall listen I am a great listener!!
Wouldn't say my advice is all that good though!!!
My memory is forming shape I remember most things!!
I wish I could've seen the future back in the past maybe then things would be better.
Not that their bad she talks to me daily smile but it could always be better!!!
I need attention I'm a Leo and I know it!!!!!!!!!!!
People like to be around me so I must be doing something right, right?
Oh why must I be a teenager in love?
I still can't answer the question why is that bad?
She makes me sleepy her and my bestie!!!
When I was on the phone with her and my bestie was next to me too I was so tired.
Felt like I hadn't slept in years but now that I'm far from them I feel awake!!!
Ohhhhhh what now she won't let me taste her tears T-T
Mine were good I wanna try hers!
READ ALL ABOUT IT IN THE BOOK OF HEAVY METAL!!!!!!!!!!!!
Or not whatever pleases you I care about your happiness but I am no push-over.
Passive-Aggressive is the game and pain is the name!!!
Well usually God I never felt this way about a woman before what is it about her!
I also apparently liked her before now but I didn't remember I do know though!
I know for a fact I like her WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY more now and knowing that!!
Totally pleases me! I need to please her though so I can get my true happiness.
I will not allow her to be sad no matter what the stakes are!!!!!!!!
She can do whatever she wants to me I'll still be there for her.
Wether she notices or not even if she doesn't care!!!
I will always care!!!!!!!!! In my way which is probably creepy if I re-read that stuff.
Oh who knows is it true love or obsession maybe a bit of both.
Now that was creepy but if your still reading this I guess I am interesting.
She was gonna tell me she loved me she said it's not like she doesn't mean it!!
Though she probably doesn't mean it the way I do!!!
Which is why I didn't have her say it!!!!!
Was that the right choice huh tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cried after that but then my dear bestie turned those tears of sadness to laughter!!
Before it got too bad soo only like 3 tears came out before I was happy!.....
Well my weird type of happy that reasonable people wouldn't like.
Yea maybe I am crazy all this pent up love that needs expressing!!!!!
I feel as if I'm trying to hard but this isn't even full power I'm like 15% THERE...
Sometimes I feel as though a should stop but the stronger part of me wont allow it!
The stronger part really likes her and that's either a bad thing or a good thing.
Unconditional in the way I forgive her before she can even explain.
Unparalleled in the way no ones made me feel this way before.
Unrequited in the way she doesn't even feel half the same......
The three U's of my life today!!!
Even with all that I can't let go just like she can't let go of him.
I know he feels some sort of an attraction but I wont allow my self to be angry.
Is that bad...I know it would make her at least a little happy.
Though it would destroy my bestie.....
Ohhhh the love triangle and I'm on the outside looking in!!
I wish to take out one of the corners so we can be parallel lines together!!
My wishes hardly come true but I still have tons of faith!
Now she is asleep and my distracted personality if fading.....
She is the one that I adore queen of my silent suffocation....
Break this bittersweet spell on me lost in the arms of destiny....
I never believed in destiny if it wont allow me to have her.....
Then I don't want destiny.......................
Ohhhhh the days never go out how I fantasize but they are still special......
When she's involved she wants me to have my own happiness I try...
But how could I be happy when she is sad ...........
If you have an answer I would love to know.....
Alas I must end my happy post in a state of solace.......