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gooood going this is just great. Back to rock bottom! Im not talking about Jeff cuz im gladly getting oer him but other problems are happening and it really really sucks monkey's! Me and Deedee are fighting, Jessies really hurt because her basically step dad walked out on her and her family not last night but the night before that, also my cousin who was my mentor and who i really looked up to and who gave me my love for guitar has landed himself in drugs and ended up going to jail for domestic violence on his wife. I dont know him anymore, he's not himself anymore and i bet 10 bucks he cant play the guitar like he used to...he was great, better than even Zacky Vengence. Also, so with alll this crap going on it was a very dramatic day today. Me and Jessie cried together nostop at skool all day. I was feeling so hurt and so sick that I took a bathroom trip out of class so i could calm myself down.

so much has happened and im really sad. So is Jessie, we're both in pain and our so called best friends Deedee is doing nothing to help us because shes too caught up in her boyfriend Casey. My dad was like, "Well, u gotta understand some ppl just think bf's are more important than friends" but its pissing me and jessie off cuz shes abandoning us for casey and shes setting herself up for a real heartbreak if she keeps thisup and then shes gonna come crying to us? after ditching us for him. Cuz he has she leaves without saying goodbye shes always haveing too much PDA with him its sick. we're not jealous we just are lookng at it from an outsiders perspective. and i mean i dont want me dad to agree with me but his statement...come on... isnt abandoning ur best friends for a bf a bit much?

Anyway, so everythings purty crazy, tomorrows friday and Jessie and I are going to the anime club cuz i havent been there in a while and although shes not into anime im dragging her with me cuz im her ride home. Mebbe ill ask her to come to roller city with me. every friday i go there with my etiwanda gothic friends and we chill. We need to take our minds off this crazy past few days so ill ask her to come with me.

well, hopefully this will all boil over soon, easter is comming and i made baskets for DD and Jessie. i kno me and dd arent talking to eachother right now but, maybe things will be ok. Like Jessie says *cuz its happened to them too) mebbe since we're besties we've spent to much time together and we need a break cuz we're sick of eahother. and i kno what she means i have a brother. but still....this is crazy, right now is the time that me and Jessie need her the most and shes not there to help us.

this morning at skool Jessie started to cry then i started to cry then we were crying together and Deedee just stood back and ignored us and PDA'ed with her bf. Everyone else didnt know what to do but come on, we're dd's best friends, our other friend Pear noticed it too how she stayed by her bf instead of comming to comfort us cuz she saw both of us crying too.
ARGH! this is too much g2g bye.