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ookie so im looking back on all my entries and im wondering where the heck they all went?!?! its only showing my first post from the day Jeff first called me but nothing else... what happened to everything?!? i have waaayyy more entires than just one my enties go from when me and jeff first talked to when he asked me out to when we did all this crazy stuff to when he broke up with me to when me and deedee got in a fight to now. waaaadt?? oh well, anyway, today was a very odd day... Deedee and I stil arent talking to eachother and Jessies still in a bad mood from when Ronnie left. Im trying to stay strong here, I have my probems too but today, i was trying to act happy cuz yesterday i cried about 3 or 4 times and now i decided i wante to end the week on good spirits.

Anyway, nuthin much happened today. It rained really hard and i loved it. i was soaking wet when i got home today. I changed my clothes cuz im going to roller city tonight with my etiwanda friends. Ok, so ive decided starting Monday im going to try and fix some of this mess here that im in. First off imma talk to deedee and see if we can just pick up where we left off and talk to her as to why we got in this mess blah blah blah. Then after that i think everything else should fall into place cuz one of the main reasons why im in such a sucky mess is cuz me and my best best friend arent talking and it hurts. We have shared EVERYTHING with eacchother she knows more about me than i kno about me. So does Jessie but her and i arent fighting so its ok. Also, our inside jokes! come on u cant just throw that away, we have the jokes Dominant Stuff, Middle of the Night Dipping, "Nights", World Domination, OMG I Love You, and oh boy i could go on.... idk

maybe soon this whole thing will boil over. As for me and the "guys" department... Lenny:im really not into him, yeah we were together at the backwards dance but come on, im not that into him and ive tried to tell him that but yet again he WONT GO AWAY!!! Vince: he's a player, i saw through his deception he's just a sweet talker forget that boy. Anthony?? yeahh Ant boy, havent talked about him in a while. Well he's a little too emo for me.... and Jeff? Im getting over him, yeah there are times that i feel a little hurt when i see him but ya kno what? Im doing good. That fool aint worth my tears anymore. YAHOOO!!!! everythings FINALLY looking on the brighter side. Geez life is tough!