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I wiped my eyes, and a few tears came out.
Does this mean I'm crying?
I suppose so, I wouldn't really know.
I'm bad at feelings, and reading people.
The feelings I do get sometimes hardly ever make me feel "good".
The need of needing to talk to someone is still there.
I'm starting to hate being alone.
Starting to hate people who aren't alone.
Hating people for being happy around me.
Hating feeling ignored.
Hating feeling hate.
All the spaces in my heart where "love" used to be I suppose.
I wouldn't blame this on anyone, but myself.
I was content at one point.
Happiest days of my life.
My therapist asked if I would do it over again.
I said yes, I truly was happy even if it didn't end so well.
It still hasn't gotten any better.
I don't see it getting any better either.
I slept last night.
I dreamed I was a king.
I was kind I held feats.
I wasn't sexist.
I had people voting before I passed laws.
Then I got my queen.
Her face...well she didn't have one really.
It was blank, but I loved her, and she loved me.
I was very happy, and peaceful.
UNTIL!!!! DUN DUN DUN!!!!!
Another man came also faceless.
He said that the woman I married was his one true love.
Of course I can't stand in the way of love so I had them talk it out.
My Queen left me for him.
Of course it was a bittersweet moment.
I was happy she was happy, and that I made someone else happy as well.
Only thing is was I was alone now.
After that my kingdom slowly started crumbling.
People noticed me being sad all the time, and took advantage.
I was imprisoned by my court advisor (Cliché I know)
Then I was beheaded.
I woke up right when my head rolled, and I saw my own body.
It was nice to sleep again I guess.
It's a better release from life then anything else.
Maybe I should get into a coma?
That was a horrible dream....
THE PAIN THE HORRIBLE PAIN!!!!!
Those were better times though....
What do you do when you wanna talk to someone, but you have nothing to say?
I realize this post has no reason.
Though I doubt any of my posts do.
This doesn't seem deep in anyway.
Maybe because I'm not deep?
I'm arguing with myself right now can you tell.
I mean potentially i'm talking to myself anyway.
Who really cares then?
HUH?
ANYBODY?
ANYBODY?
ANYBODY?
I COMMAND YOU LOVE ME!
REALLY I MEAN ANYBODY!
CROWN IN THE SKY TELL ME WHY!
Haaaaa.....
I'm so annoying, I'm a pitiful, old man at heart.
I'd like for you to help you, but I don't know if you can.
I thought you were nice (or nuts?),
But you're really, really, really nuts (or nice?).
Every time I move, eventually you'd find me and start hanging around.
Just another lame excuse to see me. Man, it's getting me down.
You know, I'm actually glad to see you.
Maybe I'm the one who's... nuts.

Slime Princess, you're alright!
Flame Princess, you're okay.
Wildberry Princess could be better.
All of the princesses are pretty alright, but...
Oh, Bubblegum!
You look like a lot of fun!
I'm right outside!
And that is how I know.
Hey, princess, did you get my text?
With a picture of my awesome gun-show!
I'm also working on my pecs!
If you like, I'll send ya a picture of that, too.
Oh Bubblegum, I really need someone
Or anyone, pretty much anyone...
I'm so alone! Won't somebody tell me what's wrong with me!?
Anybody? Anybody? Anybody!
(no longer singing, sobbing) Anybody! Grod, in the sky,
Please tell me why!


Marceline: Marceline, is it just you and me in the wreckage of the world?
That must be so confusing for a little girl.
And I know you're going to need me here with you.
But I'm losing myself, and I'm afraid you're gonna lose me too.
This magic keeps me alive, but it's making me crazy,
And I need to save you, but who's going to save me?
Please forgive me for whatever I do,
When I don't remember you.

Ice King: Marceline, I can feel myself slipping away.
I can't remember what it made me say.
But I remember that I saw you frown.
I swear it wasn't me, it was the crown.

Together: This magic keeps me alive, but it's making me crazy.
And I need to save you, but who's going to save me?
Please forgive me for whatever I do,
When I don't remember you.
Please forgive me for whatever I do,
When I don't remember you.
La ah da da da da da da,
Da da da da da da,
Da da da da da da

Haa..... i'm sad now.....
If only I could be randomly hugged...
or go into the past...
just one more love filled hug....
........
Please forgive for whatever I do when I feel like I can't escape from you....