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School, Therapy, Panic attack, abuse painkillers, text Alex...
That was my day.
It was nice.
My attacks are getting worse.
It bugs me and it drains me.
So much fear.
Such sweet cacophony.
I just wanted to vent a bit.
I just felt like it would help..
It isn't.
I can feel it coming back kind of..
I started to remember things too.
The haze is lifting and I feel something coming.
Maybe I really do have a repressed memory.
I'm slightly looking forward to it, but at the same time I'm frightened.
I don't scared often unless it's a scary movie..
All these new sensations lately...
I don't know what to say so I'll put the lyrics to a song I really like.
Hopefully I wont forget it again.

Nine Inch Nails- And all That Could Have Been
Breeze still carries the sound
Maybe I'll disappear
Tracks will fade in the snow
You won't find me here

Ice is starting to form
Ending what had begun
I am locked in my head
With what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
Didn't let anyone get in
Left with a trace of all that was
And all that could have been

Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am
Tainted
The two of us
Were never meant to be
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me
Gone fading everything
And all that could have been

Please
Take this
And run far away
Far as you can see
I am
Tainted
And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me
All these
Pieces
And promises and left behinds
If only I could see
In my
Nothing
You meant everything
Everything to me