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my friend still won't say anything to me and it still bugs me. Im not sure if I mentioned it but this guy who used to like me asked out me friend. Honestly it doesn't bother me that there going out it's just I found out from a friend. She didn't even tell me about it and it upset's me that she wasn't that considerate to say there going out or ask me how I feel. It just makes me feel like she didn't really care about how I feel. Im still mad even though it's been like a week or longer. Some friends asked her to talk to me and she says she's tried but she hasn't if she say's she needs to talk to me I will but she doesn't so im still mad. I probable will be for a while. I've decided that im going to start dating and hope maybe i could find someone else close to toan. (read the entry before this one)
Im kind of happy today because toan came up to me and talked to me while i was in class. That was the first time in a while.
Im a little pissed because my friend jossph because he gave me glass the drug to eat and He told me all it would do is num my body for a few hours it does more then that. im never doing that ever again. The only reason was that im getting to the point were everything seems pointless and i just don't care. I don't care about many people or about myself. Im just getting more and more sad and lonly. I feel that no-one cares about me so why do I have to care about myself. Im just loseing part of my self at times and it's going to get to the point were im just gone yet still here.