Well, I feel I owe it to certain people to do this.
Steve: Steve is just...amazing. I have no clue how he does it. But when I talk to him, everything seems to be better. I have a long history with Steve. I think it's mind blowing how we're still close friends even after we went out and broke up. Thank you Steve. <3
Dave: Dave....wow. Dave is the ******** shiz. I can't wait until school starts up again because I miss my Dave. D': I remember when I was having a bad day, I could go to Dave and he'd ALWAYS make me laugh. Thank you as well Dave. <3
Kyle: Kyle is such a flippin' sweetheart <33333 I've grown to care about him so much. To the point that where if he's having a bad day, it puts a damper on my day as well. He makes me feel like there's always someone there who cares about me. Thank You Kyle, Darling <3
Mkay, now that that's out of my system.... xD
Life's been...okay I guess. I have a meeting with my therapist today at 4pm. So we'll see how that goes.
Wendy and I have been hanging out a lot. 3nodding We have fun. heart I've been playing my Pokemon Silver game a lot. I love it! It's so addicting! <3
I feel like everyone's moving past me, and I'm just standing still. My French exchange student lost her virginity last night. Leah's been hooking up with all these 18year olds and going back to their houses. Don't know if she's having sex or what... Then you have all these people around me doing drugs, drinking, and going to parties every night of the week.
Now, lets look at my life; I don't party. I don't drink. I don't smoke. (I'm okay with those two, but I just put them there for comparitive reasons) I've never been kissed. I have a job.
I feel so ******** alone. I just want to cry. But for some reason, I can't cry.
I don't know why I've been feeling so depressed latley. And if I tell my therapist "I've been feeling really sad latley." She'll ask me "Why?" And I'll say "I don't know." How lame does that sound? How can you be sad and not know why?! It makes no sence.
I got $187 Dollars this weekend from work. <3
"I just want to get out. Hey, take me [ a w a y ]"
Jess
CarmelAppl · Mon Aug 28, 2006 @ 05:46pm · 2 Comments |