hmm. . . I've finally realized it. . .
I'm HAPPY! ! ! ! (for once its real, and not just hyperness. . .)
but it is strange. . .its b/c of this one guy i like. . . .at school. . .his nickname is:
Snuggles the Cutie Pie of Hot Pink Fabric Softener! ! !
but anyways. . .I haven't told him yet. . .mainly b/c I'm scared to. . .but I had this weird dream. . .where my friend,Shannon, she took me away from him, and told me never to see him again. . .and we were going out in my dream. . . i was uber happy. . .and then. . .we never saw each other again. . and i was sad. . .i wanted to hug him like i normally do everday. . .but he wouldn't even look in my direction. . .but then, one day when i was crying afterschool, he came to me. . . and just stared at me. . .oh how i wanted to just touch him! ! !just a last goodbye hug. . .just a last glance. . .just. . .a last look of aknowledgement. . .that was my dream. . .
i mean, he's a real life person, but b/c of that dream, I'm scared to tell him how I feel. . . I guess i was sooo sad of this dream, that while i was experiencing it, Dk said i was crying in my sleep. . .i. . .just dont want to be hurt. . .again. . .I. . dont want to feel this happiness, I guess. . .it will just lead to problems. . .there. . .the happiness is gone. . I'm finally under control. . .no. . .I'm not. . .HE'S JUST TOOOOO CUTE! ! ! ! I LIKE HIM TO BITS! ! ! ! I hug him at least 20 times during the day. . . and I'm always thinking about him. . .damn me twice for getting distracted over a guy. . .
. . .tell me. . .is this normal?!?!? to be distracted. . .over a person?!?!?!
Vanyaphaerelle · Fri Oct 27, 2006 @ 03:47am · 1 Comments |