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So last night I was gonna talk to Patrick, but I didn't have the time to because Marika was over there. By the time she had left, the things I was going to talk to him about had lost their importance, so I didn't tell him. I had not the time or energy. Tonight, it's sort of the same thing, only not. You see, Marika decided that Patrick is fat and lazy, and that he needed to walk up to north campus, where she lives, so they can go for a walk. Since it's Marika, and Marika is always right, and everything Marika says goes because it's Marika and you don't say no to Marika....he got offline, knowing I was upset, to go up to north, to go for a walk with Marika.

So then he calls me, to tell me he was doing this because I was away at the time. Then he continues to ask me why I'm sad or upset. Hmmm...maybe because Cheryl was right when she said Marika has you more whipped than I could ever dream of? Am I always to come in second to Marika in this relationship? Is it just because I'm currently 700 miles away? Will this still happen when I move up there? It's very frustrating.

Excuse me while I go carve out my insecurities...